Well here I am postin first blog for here lets see how I do for it been a while since I really had a chance to sit down and just write and let it out. Well the one thing that seems to plaque me now is just thinking about things with me, my life, and things involved with me or my life. I try and try so hard to let those around me know about me and my life, so they can understand and also so maybe they can be a part of whatever it is they may be apart of. But then I go ahead and get my head all in a fog and well things were left unsaid or undiscussed and now things are weird and the worst part is I believe that I made some one upset or confused about me and who I am. That not a good thing, even after I tried so hard. To make matters worse certain things go with this and well these things can make one feel like crap or like like something has been ruined. I know alot of this dont make sense but I am needing to get this out and be able to look at it later to try and make the sense I need out of it. Life is ok for now other than that, still looking for work, but managed to find a new place and will be moving into a much nicer place then what i am into now, so yea. Got a few good friends I guess, but still cant help feel a little more like I def want and need more or better ones. With all that I am dealing with or have dealt with I keep always trying to say over and over again that no matter what I have to hold my head up high and move on past the bs and try to live my life right and full. No matter how much the pain hurts, no matter how much the sadness fills, and no matter how much the dark consumes I must carry on and hold onto that faint glimmer or light or life. This is what keeps me going on day by day, through the thick and thin. Let me be able to stand now and keep this in mind.....
