Ever get that sudden feeling of loneliness? I've been entering that little phase again. Seeing too many people happy and enjoying life... makes me get angry at them when I should be happy.
I hate when I become this sad. It would be nice to get out of this stupid feeling when I know I have plenty of people who wouldn't mind talking to me, but I feel so rejecting to a lot of things around here.
My poetry has come to a stand still, my story chapters tend to not get finished anytime I start writing them. I miss talking to a bunch of people that I always spoke with on occasion, but with school starting up again for some, and me having to realize I have to grow up and move on... it's just rather difficult with all that is going on:
-Sister moved out and is getting married.
-Can't get a job despite seven applications.
-Video games are not helping.
-I'm losing a care to write.
-Too many people being happy and I'm stuck sitting on a welcome mat.
-Got angry at other people just because they're doing well and I'm not.
I really have lost my edge with a lot of things. I wish I knew what to do right now in life. I am tired of just dealing with what has been going on...
