YummyHellFigureBrat DarkStarCassiopeia's blog: "Gabrielle_Cassie"

As i sit outside tonight looking up the sky talking to all the stars .. I am shouting out loud what i feel. I wanted to tell you that it hurts me when i hear it from your friends i broke you heart. Deep inside my heart i dont. I may not a showie person in terms how i love a friend but damn i do love you much ... it's just that i am afraid lossing you.( sometimes i like to be silent than to talk) When the fall out happens when you told me i am not your friend cause i left your turf i was so hurt, and with that i left cause i know it hurts me the most what you said. But that instance even i was so hurt and left fu i dont hate you, still praying for you and loving you. No one knows how i feel for you. How i value you as a friend. No matter how i was hurt by your words i am still there. Never stop praying for you and loving you. I was so happy when i saw you drop by my page at FB saying come back. The time i read that i cried cause i know  you mean that. But i needed sometime thats why i was away. It doesn't mean i left your turf i will never be you friend. You know me by heart that i cant hate people even people will hurt me. This why you want me to be strong for and fight sometimes. But you know me i take sometime for the hurts to heal and when i am okay i will be back with the smile. When we talk fix all nothing change what i feel and the respect it was still there. I am sorry i didn't came back or ask to be back. Cause you said that to me never come back. So i ddin't cause i do respect and honor what you said. We have lots of misunderstanding and you know that we still reach for each other and fix things. I will miss the chats that we always do even i am not in your turf we always talk and we did laugh.. thanks for those laughs my friend, thanks for sharing me your life when you serve your country, and how you fell inlove with someone. Thanks for those sharing moments about food we talk about specially those ones you missed. We had a great friendship. Thanks for the love you have for me the care and the time when i need someone to talk too. What was funny i do remember this is was christmas between new year the time i got punch on the face and you think that my bf punch me you run to my sb and was mad asking me who hurt me, then i told you what happen and i did broke the leg of the person you been laughing it cause you never know that my personallity is quite different. i will miss that protectve side of yours. This is the best i will missed the most remember that i always tease you about someone and i scared the you and it makes you quiet and wonder.. and you told me i scared you with what i do on how you show me your reactions i was like finally i scared my boss LOL.. but then i am always Cassie.. i know my mood swings makes you laugh and being just the crazy cassie as always. There is one time when me and you was the one playing the turf and we been laughing on the person who likes to list me and you said that one has a big crush on you and i was like .. Oh okay then i should make my toon a wiinner and not collecting losses and you said hey brat look at it all wins and  i was like oh great i ddint know that.. was a dummy that time figuring out the toon that was listed and here comes another list while i am fixing my other toon its like what the f*ck and you told me no worries you got wins again.. then when we got that attacks from some turf and i went like no talking then when it gets over you as me where i was at, i told you i was watching it and keep picking all the mess at the turf and cleaning it so i need you to pay me then you laugh then cause you think i was like so mad when my toons got milked. those for others are just nothing but all the fights i have you been there watching me.. now as i play it hurts me cause it reminds me always. It makes me feel playing mafia is like breaking my heart knowing it was 10 days since you been gone and thats the time i knew you are gone. Wish i was there to say goodbye, wish i was there to give you a hug but i can't all i can do is to cry and missing you more each day when i am here.. my great friend has gone and left me. I will miss when you are mad and call me brat, hard headed and i will say but i know you love me and you will say i love you Cassie. I really dont know i dont want to forget you. I am afraid i will forget you. Its not the same anymore here to be on.. no one will ask me Cassie give me a SF.. so no need scotty anymore :(. But to be honest you have this spcae in my heart always. I love you so much and everyday it breaks my heart not seeing you anymore but i am happy cause you will not have a bad heart and no pain.. you will not tell me how bad the doctors  do to you. i will miss you a lot those chats and laughing with what we talk about i will missed the most.. no dull moments (h) I will look up the sky always and i will talk to you too .. Damn you took my spot there LOL love you till we meet again One big booby...