Swoop's blog: "Newer Junk"

Why, FUCKING Why?! did you want to see me bleed more lay more lowly than i did when you showed up did you want to see more tears more heartbreak more agony more fear and distrust was i a clever experiment to see if you could break the broken was i a hole and a heartbeat did you want to take all that was left and throw it away because i would have given it all for your smile if you had only asked

Aging in Love Lost so tired of tears and the weeping of a swollen heart aching over the regrets and longing for the love we could have had and wishing...Wishing that i could believe my own masks that it was true that you don't matter that i'll be fine so when the moon reminds me of the nights we had and your photo says how quickly you walked away when the tears aren't of relief as they were when home feels less like it should when the ring on my hand doesn't remind me of you when the heart races with pain and not love when i learn how to breathe again i'll remember you until then only mourning and regret

WHY? when did i invite you to take the last of it that hope that kept things burning there are no more angels for these weary brown eyes perhaps there never were and you were the lesson to end it all that foolish ways must stop the ring would never turn the heart is mine and mine alone bound by fear and anger and shown on a lonely hand bearing the symbol of our ancestors the loving heart melted and fell through the cracks into mother earth and to a quiet surrender leaving only unanswered questions in this the deep of night when did i invite you to break my heart Goodbye to the Heart is there a synopsis to this pain that has repeated again dark and challenging a wind of change for the worse thank you, sinner against the love borne thief of hearts and man with the perfect words when you stole the last gift did you think or care did your words hold any meaning or are you as shallow as the air in this hell? is love so viscous a thing that it flows from your lips and from you in a moment and passes into the night, to be gone in the morning seeking the accommodating and free of heart to fall into your heartbreaking trap so goodbye, once fair lover that's the conclusion that you're out of the heart because it's long gone.

yes it hurts...it's going to hurt for while, so don't take it personally if i'm not my usual friendly, compassioante, concerned self. i don't want or need to talk about it, so don't ask. i'll be fine eventually and get in touch with y'all when i'm ready to face life and my FOOLISH FOOLISH heart again. thanks for your thoughts and prayers though guys.

Hidden in the Window saying forever is bitter on the tongue black in obvious masks painted and hidden before your eyes disturbed to the core broken from impatience and the mistakes of a journey too long spent looking for your touch and waiting for your love too much of a life lived or wasted outside the sunlight of your heart withering in the cold of poor choices empty lovers, greed and envy and this could be the beginning of truth or the end of the search and rhymes come and go like rain in the fall will you be as temperate ~Angel

6 Days so much to tell you about where i've been and all any of it means is that i've been lost without you memory burns with a line of insufficient replacements that i gave myself to a piece at a time and wishing and pretending like so many others that there are no regrets is another waste of time when in 6 days or 6 moments the greatest gift you've given is love anyway g.w.b. How Much Do You See? do you know the way it has cut and spit her out lost from faith and fed by doubt how gently she has held the hope of love and in the final moment you arrived bringing a greater smile and a weariness settles on the heart guilt that the past and it's path of mistakes have taught a lesson that you don't deserve to fear your truth in the eye of her own failure too crazy to love for long When Comes the Test will spring take you away? into the questions of if and when when love has set us free is tomorrow full of too much space between time burns and all things will pass but how soon is too soon for new love to bear these moments and nights pass too quickly awake to hear your breath making love in a quiet mind arms around you in the dark fighting tears that you won't see and fears that you won't hear will the spring take you away? g.w.b.

Eadarainn cadal daoine eadarainn, c`ail p`ogadh ci`uin nas `aille bardachd focalize crindhe be`o leam be`o a nochd sleeping man between us, anything kissing calm more beautiful than poetry open heart alive with me alive tonight g.w.b. Forever Yours waiting on a snowy afternoon child forever yours still warm though separate space and time bearable glowing in the miracle standing at last born again from knowledge that pain and fear are only a memory lost lovers a lesson, each content in Virgo’s grey harmony tears are for joy and relief home is where the heart is and love brought us inside g.w.b.

Hopeless Giver like service to a failing heart she offered up her last child inside gone weary in time from murders of the past to fail in truth and walk away a skill she'll love to hate the selfish burn in your cold ways too much for her to take another lost that stole her heart and threw it to the side too logical to resist the truth and in darkness she will hide there are words left burnt upon her that echo in through the blue and the question of when it passed away "i care enough not to want to hurt you" wander through the empty night frustration a new found friend and sing to those who'll never listen that pain has brought the end Sociopathic Heart without a thought for the moment you touched what wasn't yours sentencing a fall un befitting the crime of loving the supposedly kind stranger guilt free and conscious decayed poisoned by the honey sweet hell of your words time taught sight to the fool once so in love with with those kind whims but as all the self serving do you offered perfect lies but lived the truth of your lost heart and reality dawned in a thoughtful moment that sociopath is your nature

Tragic Habits where's the next disaster for the biography of mistakes? the next failed love affair between the sinner and the rakes called out by friend the attraction to fault acid to the wounded heart like a dream that's made of salt softness kept and big heart beating she looks to the night and love repeating drown the fears and into drink any distraction to just not think

Choking Fool why did you care when i was giving my heart away to one with tragic false promises why did you listen when i brought tears again to your arms why did you wake reaching for this why aren't you afraid of the nightmare we were nothing has changed i am what i was when we met choking on questions without answers mourning the love that doesn't linger the hot heart that freezes over the impossible dream that lingers the sorrow of love in an empty life why haven't you shut the door on me? as big a fool as any with a masochistic heart j.t.c.