FyreFlyy's blog: "Need life advice"

Well I swallowed every ounce of pride I had in me and told my friend lets forget it all and move on but, she still "needed time to think" I never thought for one second that I didn't want to be friends so I guess if she has to think about it then it really is over. My other friend and I mended fences and have moved on. For that I am happy but my heart is still heavy with hurt. I guess it is all a part of the life cycle and life's changes. With that being said it is time to repost one of my all time favorite poems. "A Reason A Season and A Lifetime"© by Brain A. "Drew" Chalker. People always come into you life for a reason, a season and a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, or to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually. They may seem like a Godsend to you, and they are. They are there for a reason, you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die, Sometimes they just walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on. When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season. And like Spring turns to Summer and Summer to Fall, the season eventually ends. Lifetime, relationships teach you a lifetime of lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a slid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway); and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas in your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being part of my life.... Blessed Be My Dear Friend...

This really iced my cake... Lost 2 best friends in the last 2 weeks and now Kenny isn't coming to Arizona. Oh and alone on V-day.... I wonder how much more pitiful I can get! DATE CITY VENUE 04/12/07 Omaha, NE Qwest Center 04/13/07 Des Moines, IA Wells Fargo Arena 04/14/07 Fargo, ND Fargodome 04/19/07 Greensboro, NC Greensboro Coliseum 04/20/07 Columbia, SC Colonial Center 04/21/07 Jacksonville, FL Veterans Memorial Arena 05/06/07 Indio, CA Coachella Music Festival 05/10/07 Grand Rapids, MI Van Andel Arena 05/11/07 Grand Rapids, MI Van Andel Arena 05/13/07 St. Paul, MN Xcel Energy Center 05/18/07 Columbia, MO Mizzou Arena 05/19/07 Little Rock, AR Alltel Arena 05/20/07 Lafayette, LA Cajundome 05/31/07 New Orleans, LA New Orleans Arena 06/02/07 Tampa, FL Ford Amphitheater 06/03/07 West Palm, FL Sound Advice Amphitheater 06/07/07 Columbus, OH Germain Amphitheater 06/09/07 Pittsburgh, PA Heinz Field** 06/14/07 Houston, TX Cynthia W. Mitchell Pav. 06/15/07 Houston, TX Cynthia W. Mitchell Pav. 06/16/07 Dallas, TX Pizza Hut Park 06/17/07 San Antonio, TX Verizon Wireless Amphitheater 06/21/07 Darien Lakes, NY Darien Lakes PAC 06/23/07 Philadelphia, PA Lincoln Financial Field** 06/28/07 Salt Lake City, UT USANA Amphitheater 06/30/07 Denver, CO Dick's Sporting Goods Park 07/02/07 Mountain View, CA Shoreline Amphitheater 07/03/07 Sacramento, CA Sleep Train Amphitheater 07/07/07 Seattle, WA Qwest Field** 07/12/07 Indianapolis, IN Verizon Wireless Amphitheater 07/14/07 Cleveland, OH Browns Stadium** 07/20/07 Scranton, PA Toyota Pavilion 07/22/07 Twin Lakes, WI Country Thunder USA 07/25/07 Saratoga Springs, NY Saratoga PAC 07/26/07 Holmdel, NJ PNC Bank Pavillion 07/28/07 Foxboro, MA Gillette Stadium** 08/02/07 Charlotte, NC Verizon Wireless Amphitheater 08/03/07 Raleigh, NC ALLTEL Pavilion 08/04/07 Raleigh, NC ALLTEL Pavilion 08/09/07 Bonner Springs, KS Verizon Wireless Amphitheater 08/10/07 Maryland Heights, MO UMB Bank Pavillion 08/11/07 Tinley Park, IL Tweeter Center 08/16/07 Cincinnati, OH Riverbend Music Center 08/18/07 Detroit, MI Ford Field** 08/24/07 Virginia Beach, VA Verizon Wireless Amphitheater 08/25/07 Bristow, VA Nissan Pavillion 08/26/07 Baltimore, MD Merriweather Post Pavilion 08/30/07 New York, NY Madison Square Garden 08/31/07 Syracuse, NY New York State Fair 09/01/07 Hartford, CT Dodge Music Center 09/06/07 Birmingham, AL Verizon Wireless Amphitheater 09/07/07 Atlanta, GA HiFi Buys Amphitheater 09/08/07 Atlanta, GA HiFi Buys Amphitheater

Run your car off the side of the road Get stuck in a ditch way out in the middle of nowhere Or get yourself in a bind, Lose the shirt off your back, Need a floor, need a couch, need a bus fare… This is where the rubber meets the road This is where the cream is gonna rise This is where this is what you really didn’t know This is where the truth don’t lie Find out who your friends are Somebody’s gonna drop everything Run out and crank up their car Hit the gas, get there fast Never stop to think “what’s in it for me?” Or “it’s way too far” They just show on up With their big ol’ heart Yeah find out who your friends are. Everybody wants to slap your back Wants to shake your hand When you’re up on top of that mountain Then one of those rocks will get wet And you slide back down Look up and see who’s around then This is where the road comes to an end This is where the band wagon stops This is just one of those times when A lotta folks jump off. Yeah find out who your friends are Somebody’s gonna drop everything Run out and crank up their car Hit the gas, get there fast Never stop to think “what’s in it for me?” Or “it’s way too far” They just show on up With their big ol’ heart Yeah find out who your friends are. When the water’s high When the weather’s not so fair When the well runs dry Who’s gonna be there? Yeah find out who your friends are Somebody’s gonna drop everything Run out and crank up their car Hit the gas, get there fast Never stop to think “what’s in it for me?” Or “it’s way too far” They just show on up With their big ol’ heart Yeah find out who your friends are. Yeah find out who your friends are. Run your car off the side of the road Get stuck in a ditch way out in the middle of nowhere Man I been there Or get yourself in a bind Lose the shirt off your back Need a floor, need a couch Need a bus fare… Man I been there Man I been there…

He thinks everyone hates him. The kids pick on him, etc etc. Nothing that the majority of us haven't gone through ourselves. They tell him he is ugly, or stupid or that he needs to get his teeth fixed cuz the braces aren't working. He said he got water on himself and kids are speading a rumor all over the school that he pee'd on himself. He is a tattle tale. What do you do? What do you do when the kid takes it all way too seriously? He DOES instigate a lot of this stuff so how do I get him to stop? Haha.. expect many more whiny blogs from Felicia tonight. I'm having a helluvanight! Felicia

Perhaps I should send him to go live with his father? Okay, now I AM crying because he is MINE. How can I possibly let my kid go live with someone else? But if I am such a failure..... Life sucks!

So today I get a call from my son's school telling me that. He is not showing up to 8th hour. 8th hour is kinda like a study hall/ detention that takes place after their last class. After having met with most of Colton's teachers and the school psychologist we had all agreed that he would attend 8th hour everyday. Not so much as a form of punishment but as a forum for him to get extra help completing his assignments, etc. The call I received was informing me that my son has not been showing up to these classes and that they were putting him on a "contract" that stated if he missed ONE more they were going to suspend him from school for 3 days, the next offense would be 5 days suspension or expulsion from the school. Are you God damn Freakin kidding me? SO I called the psycholgist and told her I really felt that he WAS in fact showing up to these classes and that we needed to get it straightened out. I have not heard back from her. But, Tell me something. Why in the HELL would they suspend a kid from school that doesn't WANT to be in school? Isn't that giving him exactly what he wants? Anyhow, so I get home and grill the kid. I DO believe he has been in this 8th hour. Or maybe I am just stupid, I dunno. Oh and to top it all off. I found out that he has been watching TV anyways even though I have removed that priviledge from him (he forgot to shut off the DVR). I am so beside myself right now I can't even think straight so here I am blabbing about all of it. Its all I can do to not cry from being so incredibly frustrated.

So this has quite possibly been one of the worst months or so I have ever had in my life or at least close to it. In the last 30 days I have had my A/C quit working (and I live in Arizona) It cost me a small forture to replace. I was hit on the freeway not once but twice, the day after I refinanced my house to pay the car off and purchase a new A/C and the person that caused the accident was an uninsured illegal alien. I will be without my car for at least the next 30 days. I was seeing a guy who ran from hot to cold in a heartbeat, but I finally cut ties and am trying to move on, but it has been breaking my heart. All of that and my biggest problem right now is my 11 year old son. I am just beside myself as to how to handle him anymore. He is ADHD and we have dealt with that his entire school career (he is now in the 7th grade) He has been at a new school now for approximately 5 weeks. In this time he has ditched school 3 times. No matter what I say or do nothing seems to work. I have taken away all of his TV and computer privledges and am now in the process of boxing up everything he owns and leaving him with nothing but 4 walls, clothing and books. He is failing every subject in school except guitar. I don't believe in hitting and he just seems to think Mom is a huge pushover. I could just be talking to the wall and I would get the same response. I know I haven't given much detail but I don't want to post a bulletin that is as long as a novel. I would love to hear suggestions from anyone who has had similar problems. He is my only child so its still a learning process for me, I have nothing to compare to! Thanks in advance for the help! I love you guys!!! HUGZ!!! Felicia