1409800's blog: "My Thoughts"

Okay so heres the story so far. First off I am with Mr Viking in RL and He's totally amazing. I love Him beyond all logical comprehesion. He's the father of my Daughter and the Father of My 2 Step kids. I am epic happy with Him and I can't see Me being with anyone else in real life apart from Pirate. I was with an awesome dude called Pirate a while ago and then a whole shitstorm happened. We got Fudivorced. Messy situation all around with that one after having My name dragged through the mud and my rep kinda tainted. I'm working on repairing that all by myself. Then I met a Guy called Mr NY. Mr NY got with Miss RI in RL and yeah I wasn't bothered by it at all. Miss RI is a TRUE Friend and I class Her as a Sister. Yeah there was EPIC Jealousy involved. She could be with what I wanted and I FuMarried Mr NY. But We became close after all of this. Dude WTF was I thinking getting with someone that angry and sexually frustrated all the time. He hurt Me and broke Me beyond most human repair. Then Me and Pirate got talking again and OMFG WOW I never thought I would feel like this about another Man. Yeah He's only 23 and right now I couldn't give a shit if people like Us being together on here or not. He's MY Soulmate, Companion, Compadre and Evil Accomplice on here. Yeah We have had our mini melt downs and I haven't exactly been an Angel in all of this. Now don't get Me wrong. Yeah I did love Mr NY more than He ever knew. I was mostly flying by the seat of my pants with Him and I was scared alot of the time. Mr NY and I tried working on things and tried to get our shit back on track but I was way to impatient and I fucked up. I wanted to get back with Him so badly but I failed. He then got with Miss Alabama and that distroyed Me. They broke up and Mr NY got with Miss Ohio. Not too sure if they are completely legit because I know for a fact that Miss Alabama and Mr NY are still talking and most likely flirting it up.

Then I got with a Musician for a while but that one burnt out fast and ruined an awesome friendship. But in amongst all of this I found my shining beacon of Goddess Pothead Delight. She is the most amazing Woman I have ever known. She is just as messed up as I am. She gets Me and lets Me make my mistakes. I have fallen in love with a Woman and this is something really uber new to Me. I never felt like this about my ExGirlfriend in real life. Me and Mr NY HAD to call it quits due to external of Fubar issues and holy shit. WORST EXPERIENCE OF MY WHOLE FUBAR LIFE !!!!!!!!!!!! Calling it with Him caused a whole fucking mess and I deeply regret everything that was done and said by Me to Him. Shit happens I guess. BUT the night I broke. 2 people hit Me up because I was on cam in Zombie Massacre and they saw I was crying. #1 was Apex Predator. OMG I made a Solid friend that night and I can never thank Him enough for what He did and how He made Me feel about Myself. #2 was Pirate. That wasn't anything like outta the blue but DUDE I NEEDED MY PIRATE that night and Yes He was with His FuWife at the time. I NEVER meant to hurt Her EVER but I did and I'm paying for what I did. I think I am anyways. So yeah Me and Pirate got talking and He ACTUALLY prevented Me from self harming and making myself bleed as much as I could without passing out. He hit Me up the next day to make sure HIS WENCH was okay. I'm sorry. I'm getting totally sick of this He said She said nonsense. Only who's involved in this know the whole story. DUDE thank fuck I had my best friend in the whole fucking god forsaken planets back up and epic unconditional love and support. He's MY COWPOKEY. ANYONE and I mean ANYONE messes with Him they have to get through Me first. Dude all of this stress has actually done Me physical harm and emotional distress. So yeah please understand Me and Pirate on here being together is a COMPLETE No brainer. We fit. We connect and its more than physical. He's under my skin and when He DJs OMG MAN HAPPY NIPPLES and Yeah I know I have pissed a few people off with this. BUT its OUR choice and OUR lives. Wench/Viking/Pirate/Goddess/Cowpokey FOREVER and I really fucking mean that from the bottom of my very big and roomy heart. 

You guys who have helped Me throughout My whole shitstorm have been more than epic to Me and I really think I'm blessed to have People I can count on when I need them most. 

I'm NOT out of control. I'm totally in contol of this sit rep and believe Me I'm gonna do anything and everything to keep the people I hold dear happy. 

Watch this space folks :D:D:D 

Much love Wench