Livinalie's blog: "my random poetry"

waking up and not knowing myself, the world, anything i look in the mirror the face so unfamiliar my belongings hold no value since they hold no meaning i now wander the streets my mind races does this hold significance something my mind should embrace no names or memories to help the cause im alone destined to figure myself out on my own a hard day of serching has come and gone with nothing to show but a lost soul now i return to the location in which i awoke i decide go through my belongings again to figure out who i once was and like before i am forsaken its late now i crawl into bed and quickly fall asleep maybe the morning will bring solice in my memories forming or perhaps another day of serching and hoping

ive done so much ive been there when you needed me and not once asked for anything in return i would be there at the drop of a hat to mend the wounds you recieved i could feel the appreciation you had i knew i was your savior now i need you but your nowhere to be found caught up in your own world a world not so sound NOW you only care about yourself my help NOW only a convienience thrown aside for something more worth your while contradiction is the name on the file i now step aside and let the implosion begin no longer will i be by your side to tell you right from wrong

describe the pain the torture of this domain oh how i love to watch you sqirm i take this device see the fear in your eyes and very slowly into your skin i slice all the agony you must feel is enough to sustain me everthing before you is oh so real you scream look at my face mutter its only a dream close your eyes and pray but to no avail my sadist urges take hold i begin to laugh uncontrolably your face slowing turns pale death has now taken hold i remove my harvest dispose the rest of this carcass stiff and cold

i glance into the mirror the child that was now a man searching for a cause where did the time go once free full of imagination becomeing anything i wanted to be i try to keep the inner child and never truely grow up but the battles of life will seem to disrupt the death of that bit of youth is the death of the life it once had left helpless and miserable eyes open to the ugly un-truth

never did i believe the deceased could be so pleasant they dont argue nor do they complain the skin and organs of this person slain are what feed my hunger whats left over if put together right make a wonderful place to slumber once the supplies run out off to the graveyard i go maybe next time the head could be more usefull how about a new soup bowl confined to this room for the time being the stiffened remains my only company yet they are hidden away no eyes can see no one would understand the sanctity that is my sanity

as we run through the insanity that is out lives we may seem to be content yet for the majority theres that something... that something thats missing some never truely know what it is thats lacking and spend their lives trying to figure out the gap that escapes them as for the rest its a matter of pursuing that one thing thats unaccounted for that dream they so much adore for those who dont pursue youve missed out and will one day regret to those who search for that void the best of luck i hope you find that one thing that brings you a lifetime of rejoicing

the words of all humainity are what are meant to bring us all together yet they don't instead they separate us they show us how different we all truely are many different languages many different races who cant seem to get along look at yourself and look a the world we are all one in the same we are all human no matter how different no matter how the same we all have the same thoughts we all have the same dreams just remember when you are trying for something you really want there is someone else who is tryig for the same thing life is the same for all up's and down's wherever you may be at this moment you have a destiny wheather it be what you want or not it is still going to show it self to you so follow your dreams and do what it is that makes you happy whatever happens remember its fate, and you will live happily ever afeter regardless

take a look at the here and now the duality of it all good and evil living side by side oh so wonderfully a businessman gives money to a man and family stripped of their luck in their four door steele shelter a woman lies naked and beaten in a dark alley waiting for death as another is giving birth in the hospital just down the street yet day in and day out we live within this farce we see it all yet only pay attention to what we wish the rest we dismiss the next time you get a chance talk a quick glance see how sadistically perfect it all really is

i awaken lost and confused my vision blurred and my hearing muffled then i realize im tied down and i cant move never before have i been so scared suddenly an imense pain cancels out the fear i begin to scream at the top of my lungs then look down to find blood gushing from my torso the mixture of the pain and sight of blood become overwhelming i begin to cry out for help suddenly a voice shouts out, "SHUT THE FUCK UP" i quickly look up to see a shadowy figure his face obstructed by darkness then i begin to yell and curse at him begging him to let me go once more he yells at me grabs a roll of tape proceeds to tear off a piece and places it over my mouth i begin to thrash around trying to break free of the harnesses but to no avail my captor then begins to cut into me again this pain is so unbearable i begin to cry knowing this is the end i feel him reach into where he has cut me open pulling out what he needs my body begins to shiver its so cold finally everything starts getting dark i close my eyes and embrace the end of this horror i take in my last breath my body going limp *exhale*