South Carolinas Sexiest's blog: "My Poems"

Will you ever love me? thats all I want to know, I tell you I need you and all you do is laugh, I tell you I want you and you turn and walk away. What will it take for you to be mine? do I have to cross an ocean or swim across the sea just to prove you mean the world to me. Will you ever love me? that all I want to know, I tell you I love you and you think its all a joke, you pay me no attention untill its time for sex and then out the door you go. What will it take for us to be as one? do I have to bend over backwards and cater to your every need, if this is so then you are not the one for me. Will you ever love me? thats all I want to know, please say you do so my love for you can grow, please say you love me so I can give my heart to you, please say you love me cause baby im hopelessly in love with you.

How can you tell me you love me after all you put me through, you tell me lie after lie nothing from your lips is ever the truth. Why am I still here, what have you done to make me stay, you make me cry and lose my mind and yet I still call you mine. I need to be strong and think things through, I dont want to lose you, after all I do love you, but it is something I must do. It's been a year and all I have to remember are tears of sadness and broken promises of change. Its time for to end it all for good, im done with it all, the lies, the tears of sadness, and most of all the broken promises of change. All I ever wanted was for you to love me back but all that was there was emptiness, so please dont tell me you love me unless you really mean it cause I might do somethin crazy like believe it.

Tears of sadness stream down my face as my heart begins to race. I can tell your keeping something from me, baby please tell me her name. I tried to make things right with us, I gave all I could give,but without you its hard to live. You make me promises that you obviously cant keep, so why are you still hear only again to make me weep. The tears grow bigger and my heart begins beating faster, as you grab my hand you tell me you love me and you never wanted this to end, and then as you speak her name....baby how could you, she is my friend.......was my friend......Is still my friend. To think I gave my heart to youonly to have it ripped away and shattered to a billion pieces, but guys like you come and go, friends are here forever.

I remember the first night we kissed we sang too each other in that clubs mist I knew that day my love for you was strong and you were the only man for that I longed You made me laugh with your stumbled words And I corrected you with the things I heard You fell for me and only me, as I did you And we spent four amazing years in blissful love You risked yourself and took me in with open arms and let me go where no one else would I felt for you what I believed could never possible be and I thought that this is what you loved about me Then one strange and sad day that all changed you broke my heart and did it three times again you said you loved someone else that was not me Yet I continued four more times to fight for what I believed I now know that we are all over and completely done and for that I am truly sad as I am finding it hard to move on I have met someone amazing and new and I am happy again but I need you to know that you will always be the one.

This pain, this hurt locked away in my head, Nobody knows How inside I am dead. Blood on my wrist, There is glass in my hand. Nobody knows, They cannot understand. They don't listen, So, they can't hear me cry. Nobody knows, I just wish I could die. Shaking fingers, Grasp this plea for release Nobody knows How the pain will not cease. Sadness bleeding, Emptying to the floor, Nobody knows I always craved for more, Bleeding slowly Until my wound will close, Dying slowly, Nobody knows

Dont Tell Me You Understand What if you saw my arm one day And all those bloody trails? Will you be able to understand why I cut when all else fails? Would you tell me to stop the cutting Because what I do is wrong? Will you try to convince me again That I'm really very strong? Will you tell me otherwise When I say "you won't understand"? Answer me this question Have you sat with a knife in your hand? Have you even contemplated Or thought about suicide? Do you have any fucked up emotions That you always try to hide? Have you ever lost best friends Because of the blade of a fucking knife? Are you stuck in deep depression Always trying to end your life? Do you have the scars I have That decorate your wrist? And if you try to smile Do you smile with a twist? How about all that precious blood That's keeping you alive? Do you shed it every night Making it difficult to survive? Have you ever stayed up late While endless tears you cried? Have you felt that horrible feeling Like part of you just died? Have you ever taken drugs So the time will just pass by? Have you found yourself to think How perfect it'll be to die? Have you attempted suicide so much That you've already lost count? Will even the tears you've ever cried Add up to that amount? If you try to help me out Don't assume you know how I feel The truth is you can't mend my heart And you can't make my cuts heal So just answer all these questions Before you give me any advice Just think it over clearly Think it over twice

One day, your arms will possess me, One day, you will ask for my hand, One day, the ring will be shining, In the sun as we walk thru' the sand. One day, romance will caress me, One day, the church bells will chime, And we will go cruising together forever For the love of my dreams will be mine

Wanting and feening for what it is you got Thinking about the time you got me so hot Hot and bothered is how I get when I can't have you Some of the foul shit you did to me wasn't getting through Probably because I was merely dickmotized I couldn't see the reality of the relationship I couldn't let you go after all the times you tripped All I could think about was the feeling of pleasure you put on me Possibly from the confusion of being highly dickmotized You knew what you were doing when you layed me down, locked me down, turned me around, and dickmotized me You knew I wouldn't have the simplest control over myself Screaming, Yearning for help For someone to come rescue and slap me back into reality To tell me that I had been under your spell Instead I fell into the hell of your dickmosis You used it to your advantage to keep me hooked to only you Knowing that you were the shit when it came to doing the do It took me a while, but I broke out of your dickmozation I'm back to reality knowing that I'm finally done Opening up my eyes and closing my clit I will never again be dickmotized by your shit

No more tears falling from my eyes Caused by the pain I endured from you I don't want you to see or hear anymore of my cries Making me feel more like a fool No more tears running down my cheeks Caused by thinking about the love I gave away You took my love and behind, left me Even though I pleaded for you to please stay No more tears dripping from my face Caused by all of your lies Soon you will be definitely replaced And in time there will be no more cries No more tears I will shed causing me hurt and grief No more cries I will let hit the ground My life again will be filled with relief Knowing that karma will be coming back around

He'll meet you and sweep you off of your feet He's nice and he's funny, so cute and so sweet Surprisingly, he likes the same things as you He does all the things that you love to do He's the perfect guy, the one of your dreams -You belong together, or so it seems! He looks in your eyes, and plays with your hair He tells you that he'll always be there His touch is so soft, his hold is so tight, His words are so soothing, his kiss is just right! You ditch all your friends for your new obsession You don't realize your future is full of depression You think that you love him, you give him your heart Little do you know that he'll tear it apart You do what he wants, you know its not good You told him slow down, and you think he understood You let it slide by, he's just having fun You'll learn to like it as time goes on! He's taken your heart, and locked it away And you see him with a different girl the next day You cry and you grieve, but then you forgive, He won't do it again for as long as he lives! At this point you've fallen into his trap He has all control when you're in his lap You believe he's sorry, you're together again You give him a chance, he's your only friend! You're right where he wants you, he molds you like clay, And you see him with girl number 3 the next day He got what he wanted, accomplished his goal He still has your heart, which he evilly stole! He's taken your purity, you still can't believe You feel hurt and cheap and extremely naive. If only your hair was blond and straight If only you looked like you lost some weight If only your clothes were a little bit tighter If only your teeth were a little bit whiter You know he's an ass, but you still want him back And you grieve about all of those qualities you lack All you wanted was to have some fun Now you wish that this whole thing had never begun You wish that one day you'll see him cry. That one day he'll know how he killed you inside! But you know that he won't, cause he's numb to pain He'll be with some girl while you cry and complain Beware of the players, they'll steal your heart And they'll give it back once its all torn apart Don't let them suck you into their game Cause once you lose, you're never the same.