South Carolinas Sexiest's blog: "My Poems"

Don't judge me You don't know me Don't look at me You don't see me I hide behind this shield of not having a care in the world If only you really knew what's under that happy girl I don't want the real me To shine through my disguise Because my heart's been broken And I've heard too many lies To you my world is black and white I always know which way to turn But if only you knew my shades of gray And all I have left to learn When will it make sense? What lies ahead for me How will I find my happiness Who will reveal what I want no one to see? When will I have the answers To all the questions in my head Who will ever make sense Of all the things I've said

The thoughts that run threw my head, I dont dare to speak. Even to a friend. Every word he has ever said. Stays in my heart which now needs to mend. After promises you said you wouldn't. Then after that I said I couldn't. You broke your promise and left me. Now my sadness is something you can see. I dont walk with a smile anymore. My broken heart is delicate and sore. I now like to watch myself bleed, because I really do need, the "I love you" I no longer get. I'll love you forever and don't you forget.

The sun rose slowly above the hill. Everything was quiet, everything was still. Crystal clear water started to flow. Flowers were tinted with the sun's orange glow. A tiny drop of rain disappeared into the pond, Causing great disturbance, going on and on. Smaller ripples grew greater, making it look fair. Then it started to diminish until nothing was there. Dotted by diamond-like raindrops, a leaf dangled from a tree. It then landed in a river, someday winding up at sea. These things I saw are but a memory locked away, Forever a beautiful memory, it will forever stay...

Cut my wrist and black my eyes So i can fall asleep or, die I hate feeling all this pain that i cant control So to deal I will cut my vain Untill i start to bleed and watch it poor unto the floor and that is what i need Kick me when i am down Kick me untill i cry untill i scream for death untill there is a pretty frown On my tear stained cheek With bruises on my side And then MAYBE Some people will freak I just want to end this terrible pain and mybe i will Be able to start new But u just kick me into the door and Cut a big gash in my wrist And you yell I hope you die And cut me some more But I love you And I dont care When you treat me like this Beacuase i know i derserve it So Cut my wrist and black my eyes So i can fall asleep or, die P.S The poems that I am posting I wrote them myself so imma pull them from my myspace blogs and post them here.