Butterfly Dreams's blog: "My Poems"

Forgiven and Forgotten I open my heart to all I live for the future, I live for time now Nothing fazes me, no longer shall I weep I'm tired of the pain, I'm tired of the drama From now on, the pain and anger rolls off my back Away to the trashy gutter Away from my heart to kill me with pain No more talking No more pain No more attention No more fuel to make that blazing fire I care no more for those that no longer care for me I forgive and I forgot Now I live time as it is Now I live as what time gives me I love those close I love those far apart I love those who have harmed I love those who have given me love I have forgiven, and I have forgotten No longer shall I shed a tear for those looking to harm me I only shed tears for the love and lost of those dear to me I care for all, and shall continue far My life is now my own, and no longer theirs to mold I mold my life for my own benifits No longer shall those cold fingers steal the warmth from my soul I am who I am, so deal with it No more shall the pain bother me No more aweful lies No more pain from nasty tounges Write what you may, Talk what you wish No longer do I care No longer I bother to read nor hear Stalk me if you wish Try to be me, try your best No one can be who I am Only I, can take care of the soft silk life line I'm done, I'm through I have Forgiven And I have Forgotten.................. Blessed Shall You All Be

My body wants more of such love. Every night my heart shivers with lust. With his gaze down at me, I smile to him above. Having him hold me within his arms is a must. For it pains me not to feel his touch. His fingers trail gently down my pale, soft skin. While he grace's my throat with gentle kisses, but not too much. Why is it that passion sometimes feels like a sin. Though deep within it feels like heaven. My heart wanting more and more of him. He's almost like a sweet chocolate craiven. I will do anything for him, even hang from a cherry tree limb. While beneith me awaits hell itself. I will await for my knight in shining armor. With bare hands and cunning intelligence, he will rescue me himself. And then after he will proctect me with his rubber. From there on we shall live forever after.

A Beautiful Angel glances my way. Her smile warms my day. I cant help but to think of her beautiful face. Her eyes make me feel as though I’m floating in outter space. I float there in a daze. I dont think anything can give me a faze. I want her in my arms, now and forever. (Dedicated to my lovely woman, Alexis)

Everyday I wander what my life is worth. I wander why I am here on this Earth. Will there be a day where I can finally understand? Or will they always stand there and make a demand? My days are wonderful and full or fun. But when night falls, the pain throbbs my heart making me want more of that warm sun. Will there ever be a day where I receive praise? Or do they beleive that I am not fazed? I am not a walking peice of armor, I feel the hurt too.

The moon is my guide to freedom. As the stars show me the future. --- The sun prays for my well being. As the clouds brush away my fear. --- The grass is my comfort. As the water is my suport. --- The trees give me my strength against the pain. As the flowers show me the beauty I am. --- The rain washes away my tears. As the snow comforts my fall. --- Nature is a mother's touch of pure Heaven in all.

Sweet and calm she portrays to the world. Yet deep inside she hides the passion for something more. Her pictures are seductive and capture more than she gives to others. Style and high fashion was the only world she knew. This young girl so fresh and new, found something she wanted even more. The fire in her eyes grew more and more with each frame. Her smile became evil and her body language dominaiting. Me trembled, and women became inraged with jealousy and hate. This girl's passion for more grew to great lengths with each camera flash and her heart dimmed. More she wanted, the more she became intimidaited. Flames bursted from her stares and the camera rosted. Innocent she was, innocent was what they wanted. Though with each photoshoot they booked, the more she became mischeivious. Time to bring out the next, "Top Model".

Tonight I have felt the pain My heart sinks lower and lower within my chest Tears form from the corner or my eyes My lips sag with nothing but a painful frown I wish to cry till my hearts content, till I feel that the pain is gone My one chance to true love and beauty has been spent Has been ruined due to my stupidness I feel it is my fault, but others try to make it their's Her eyes are no longer looking my way For I failed to tell the truth and now I must pay I feel the pain of my worthlessness I feel the sarrow of her hearts breaking I wish to hold her and tell her how much I am sorry But that shall never happen because of my story Why must it be like this, why must my life treat me like this? I wish to be hers, but I wish to be his I wish to have my freedom once again, but then again, I do not want it I feel broken in half I feel lost in my sarrows To wish and to have is another world Now, what is a broken hearted girl to do? I'm so sorry, my beauty. Please forgive me.......

Today life flown past my mind The wind whistled in my ear Speaking horrible thoughts through and through My heart slowly loosing its beat As my mind closes in on itself Tears so warm and painful along my cheeks I wish to loose this pain But can I ever do such thing? Green eyes glisten under the moon shining bright Strolling like crazy is the tears of my pain Today, just never came to mind As my heart stops beating I wish forever that I could just die and leave this pain behind Will someone save me from my depression? Will someone help me speak these words that need to be spoken? When will the pain stop? Not Today I know to well For my heart sunk so deep in my chest With the screaming in my ears by those I thought loved me I cant stand it no longer, I wish for the pleasure of that blade.... Against my throat.........

The tears of pain have been shed, Now to find their way to the abyss... Crimson light flowing through your veins, where the hope of life begins to fade... Heart pounding within your caved chest, struggling to breath it's last breath... As your life begins to fade there before you. Ting...Ting...Ting... The clock strikes midnight on the count of three, Soon the goddess of death will find you were you lay... There, her slim ivory fingers shall caress you to sleep... Before her glowing eyes shall you smile in peace...Finally at rest from the horrid world... and it's pain. Body laying cold against the black marbled floor, as others walk by you un-noticed of your pain. Why...oh why should you be ignored, in this life... You are nothing to anyone, anymore.

I've been misunderstood ever since my foot stepped upon this solid ground. Eyes staring in my direction, from all around me. I hear the voices in my head, I read their words through thy written tounge. Why has my body and soul been corrupted and tainted with this thick brown mudd of pure hatred. My petals of silky beautiful glowin color begins to fade, as my thorns and life are ripped from thy veins in bloody gushes and spouts of pain. Blood of the tainted depression sprouts within it's lucious burst of crimson velvet. My tears glitter within such tainted evil, no harmony here! Watchfull eyes, evil snarls, words of great hurt, and minds not understanding my delicate ways. From that one infected mouth of anger, the worded language spread wide. That moment, my petals became as rare as that last unicorns horn of magikal glitter dust. Unlike that beast of beauty, she will always be loved, but my petals of pure violet shred to nothingness against that gentle patch of green. Withered and wilted, the life deseased.