HarleyQuinn's blog: "My Poems... yea I wrote these"

I've been in the darkness for so long just waiting for the light, And now that you have come my way, my days don't seem like nights. I'm glad I've finally overcome my fear of the other side, Thank you for showing me the way, by taking me on this ride. I've never really felt this way about a guy before, You've truly touched me deep inside, you've opened, unlocked, the door. I know it's nothing serious, but surly it's a start, You've treated me so equally, I feel it in my heart. And even if this does not work, I'm glad I've had this chance, To see how great you truly are, even just for a glance. We never know what'll come of this, it really just depends, I'm glad we're taking the first step, we're becoming better friends. With you I never have to guess just how you really feel, You talk to me about the facts and tell me what's the deal. With you I feel so comfortable, like nothing can go wrong, I get this tingly feeling inside, you sing to me like a song. The fact that you are older, really did freak me out, But yo treat me like I'm your age, now I'm rid of all my doubts. I'm trying to live in the moment, by forgetting the past, And so far it's been working, and it's really been a blast. So hopefully from this day forth, I'll know just what to do, If I ever come across a guy, another guy like you.

So confused Not knowing what to do I love you so much But I love him too Most of the time all we ever do is fight I really don't have a clue on how to make it right I want to be with you But he is never off my mind I'm sorry that I am hurting you I'm sorry I'm that kind Why do I still love my ex I ask myself everyday I have you now But I just want to hold him and say I miss you so much You are the love of my life I want to be your wife He would never hurt me Curse at me or lie So that is why I have to say I'm sorry and good-bye.

Why am I feeling this way? It's my life and I should have a say. I feel as though no one cares I feel as if I'm locked up, crying.... while people stare Help me please escape this I want the life I miss Depression is probably what I feel I can't eat a single meal I want to die The pain and pressure is way too high Help me through I need you My screams at night are an echo But you probably know When I scream your name out I never hear you shout I know that you're not coming back I need to be put back on the rack.

There are many things I cry for but none have hurt this bad. And of everything I have cried for they have never made me feel this bad. I cry because I still love you and I cry because I hurt you. I'm not sure what to do and all the crying is killing me.... because I love you.

I'm so pissed off Screaming inside I just can't leave our life behind. I loved you You loved me This is how things should be. But they won't because you lied and my thoughts burn my mind My eyes can't seem to focus as I try to hold back the tears This pain may end up killing me even if it takes years.

Don't tell me you love me if you are not sincere, For a lie that strong can ruin my life and bring on a new fear. Fear to be loved, Fear to love ever again. It can cause my fragile heart to break, tear, and bend. Think of all in life that will be missed because of one small broken promise. So, when I put all of my trust deep within you, Please don't tell me you love me, Unless you truely do.

How come when you're gone and you call I feel depressed? Why do I cry when you say "I Love You"? Is it because I don't care? I don't think that's true Because I love you too. So why do I feel this way? Can anyone tell me? I really don't think so. What do you think it is? Do you think it's because I don't love you? Actually I sometimes think it's because I love you too much.

You told me that you loved me and I thought it was true But now I know your heart is black and frozen through and through I told you that I loved you and I know that was true And now my heart is in pieces and its all because of you.

I'm not really sure What to do What to say All the edges of my life Are starting to fray As your voice echos through my head The more and more I wish I was dead I still love you Actually sometimes more than ever before But nothing ever works I thought I learned that lesson once But it must have fell straight to the floor I made a mistake And let you close a door But that door along with my heart Will never just open again They need time to heal For all the cracks to seal You've moved on And I wish I could too It's not that I don't want to It's that my heart is still aching I don't regret anything I just wish you hadn't lied to me I always knew that my trust was a mistake But I guess it was a mistake I had to make.