Death leaves me with infatuation
I embrace the pain it has left me with
Because I don’t want to forget the sound of her voice
The compassion in her eyes that reached straight for your soul
I can’t help it
I can’t fix it
I can’t end it
I’ll never accept it.
I’m blind to my own torture
I can’t resist the pain, so tempting
A phantom of who I used to be,
Ultimately bearing a cross for all the world to see.
Hoping a lifetime lasts only for a moment
Wishing to let it all fall away
Ripping it apart until it can no longer exist.
Counting each day that passes by,
Yearning for something to believe in anymore
Listening for the words of truth
Opening my heart to anything new
