Sillybillie1984's blog: "My Creative Journey"

Translucent as it may

During this time of pain

So much sorrow has broken loose

In this lost and forgotten world

Where is thaw innocence

Left upon this little girl

Tears she weeps for her lost mother

And hidden father as it may

Why must she be life's toy?

To border with this pain

A lost soul, I think not

Just a game in this life she lives

Where is the smile she once had?

And happiness she uses to give

Shall her journey

Be a darkened path

I think not,

But where's it at

In her heart

So broken and torn

Or in her souls

Filled with life's thorns

Her pillow and her comfort

Are her only treasures deep

Alas where she lay's

As she timidly weeps

Crouching with fear

And an undying love

As she reaches out

To someone above

A light shiver

Upon her spine

It could not

But be her time

Not her time,

To lay eternity

But her time

To be

To be what

A clown for this world

As I am there foolish girl

To be a soul that burns

With fury and pain

Or to be released

From the insane

Tell me now

Or leave me be

Thus have to

Torture me

No more games

She begins to scream

From all this pain

Just let me free

A sudden Burdon

She feels no more

Has thaw above

Unlocked a door

A sudden wave

Of freedom inside her soul

From the anger

Has she let go

And on her journey

She sees the light

It was up to her

This whole time

She’s the one that held the key

I use to want to be just like you

There were times you made me cry

And there were times I wanted to die

And although I may miss you when you’re gone

I must say I’m finally moving on

Moving on from the I hate you’d

And wishing I was never born

Moving on from the hits I took

And the heart that you had torn

I can't stay angry forever

Or let my life just pass me by

I can't be afraid anymore

To try and enjoy my life

You took so much from me

So much more then you will ever know

But I must find a way to move past this

If I am ever going to grow

But before I can finally move on

I need to say a few things to you

And even though you say you dint remember

I know you know that this is all true

So here goes......

You took all the times I could of had

When you kept me from my dad

You took my spirit and damn near tore it down

Until I learned how to pick myself up from the ground

You took my faith and shattered it

When it came to happiness

Taught me how to sabotage love

And never really accept it

You took the childhood I should have had

When you would raise your fist to me

You took dam near everything

Away from me.....

I have pushed so many people away

Because I never knew what was real

And every time they got to close

I was too afraid to feel

But it may have taken all these years

To realize my biggest weakness

And even though I still shed tears

I can no longer live like this

I can't keep the pain to myself

And sugar coat the truth

It's time I tried to live a happy life

And let go of the bad memories of you

So goodbye, to all the hurt, as I try to let go of this anger

I’m so ready to move on I am more than eager

I refuse to let you still hold me back

I refuse to let my future repeat my past

I’m moving on, and I am forgiving, I am letting go, and choosing to accept the truth

That just because my past was painful, I will still forever love and miss the real you......

The; you, you rarely showed