I use to idealize you
I use to want to be just like you
There were times you made me cry
And there were times I wanted to die
And although I may miss you when you’re gone
I must say I’m finally moving on
Moving on from the I hate you’d
And wishing I was never born
Moving on from the hits I took
And the heart that you had torn
I can't stay angry forever
Or let my life just pass me by
I can't be afraid anymore
To try and enjoy my life
You took so much from me
So much more then you will ever know
But I must find a way to move past this
If I am ever going to grow
But before I can finally move on
I need to say a few things to you
And even though you say you dint remember
I know you know that this is all true
So here goes......
You took all the times I could of had
When you kept me from my dad
You took my spirit and damn near tore it down
Until I learned how to pick myself up from the ground
You took my faith and shattered it
When it came to happiness
Taught me how to sabotage love
And never really accept it
You took the childhood I should have had
When you would raise your fist to me
You took dam near everything
Away from me.....
I have pushed so many people away
Because I never knew what was real
And every time they got to close
I was too afraid to feel
But it may have taken all these years
To realize my biggest weakness
And even though I still shed tears
I can no longer live like this
I can't keep the pain to myself
And sugar coat the truth
It's time I tried to live a happy life
And let go of the bad memories of you
So goodbye, to all the hurt, as I try to let go of this anger
I’m so ready to move on I am more than eager
I refuse to let you still hold me back
I refuse to let my future repeat my past
I’m moving on, and I am forgiving, I am letting go, and choosing to accept the truth
That just because my past was painful, I will still forever love and miss the real you......
The; you, you rarely showed