It days like these where i really think If I will ever be able to stay happy. I know i am still young and have a full life ahead of me and all but really.. whats so wrong with trying to be happy now? I guess for some people it comes easier then others. All the time I have went and tried to find a girl for me it always ends up the same with me and unhappy. This time i was not looking but this one come with its own new problems and I really don't know what i should do. I have not felt this happy in years but still at the same time I am not sure if i should go with it or be scared. I am really falling for this girl( not more of love but Liking her a lot) When I have spent time with her i cant see anything wrong with her. Yeah she might smoke but for once it does not bother me, does not turn me off or anything.. its like I don't even notice it when i ma around her. I have a smile glued ear to ear the whole time. When I first kissed her nothing else mattered at that point. everything around me just went away and I could not remember any time i was not happy.. its been getting ever since that day. All and all. In the end of all of this, I just want to be able to come out happy for the first time in a long time.
