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PILL POPPIN' THIEVES FINALLY CAUGHT!!!

UNION CITY,IN- The wee town of Union City,IN can breathe a sigh of relief now that two pill poppin' theives are finally behind bars. There will be no bingo for these gals tonight. After many years of selling pills to underage girls, this mother/daughter team was finally arrested. The mother,Tammy Rubio, should win the "Parent of the Year Award" for sending her own daughter out on the street to sell her meds. The daughter,Kishtra Wolf, also known as "Diamond" to local drug addicts, is a known meth user and been known to break into local homes to steal money,medications, or anything that can be sold for drug money. So Union City can sleep well tonight knowing that there is finally a little justice this holiday season. It is the best Christmas gift the town could ever ask for...it is a very Merry Christmas indeed.

i wrote a few letters to Kathleen Hanna when i was 19 or 20...she always wrote back. sometimes it took awhile but i was always so happy when i received a letter & the return address said "K. Hanna"...there was one letter in particular that will always make me fucking happy! whenever i felt like giving up on zining or got a bad review i would take out this letter & it always made me feel better.... KATHLEEN HANNA THOUGHT I WAS RAD & THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERED TO ME! :)
& then of course there was the time i met her at a Le Tigre show & she recognized me & she seemed just as excited to meet me!! & then she dedicated a song to me.....i was standing in the front row & she's like "oh ...this song is for Jolie!" then she points at me & says,"she's right there!"

it's so silly but those letters & that moment will always be very importatnt to me! i got this letter out cos i wanted to include it in the Riot Grrrl zine that i am doing with Hannah Ax Wound....but i really wanna share it now!!
This is a letter i receved from Kathleen Hanna when i was younger:

i had this really stupid dream the other night!!!! me & jamie were working at the same factory & i was happy cos i got to work with him on the first day. then on our second day they split us up & i was in a group that was more like SCHOOL & it was being taught by HAL SPARKS!!! which ya know,in real life would make me more than happy! i LOVE Hal Sparks. but in my dream i was annoyed cos i didn't know if i'd get to see Jamie all day at work-or if we'd have lunch togther. & i wished i didn't hafta be in stupid old Hal's class when i could be working with Jamie in another area...so basically i had a dream about a guy that i think is really hot (& used to have dreams he was my BOYFRIEND! along with dreams where i was dating johnny knoxille or making out with dane cook!!!) & in my dream all i could think about was MY HUSBAND! now that is dedication!!!

Ok...so i am doing this zine with psychic_surgery / jethrablack about Riot Grrl & how it affected(saved) my life .... & i''ve been thinking a lot about how i am now compared to the person i used to be. i have changed in so many ways. listening to RG music when i was younger made me a stronger person at a time in my life where i felt weak & powerless...it gave me something to believe in. & while i went thru different music phases-->ska,pop punk,emo, & most recently rockabilly & psychobilly--i still listened to riot grrrl. but after awhile i lost interest. i dunno how that happened. i still dragged out my old records & listened to them every once in awhile but like i mentioned in my post yesterday--i stopped ordering from KRS & Chainsaw & just got outta the loop when it came to RG music. i still got awesome mixes from people with kickass riot grrrl music but never purchased any new music from these bands myself....which sucks cos i know i missed out & now i gotta catch up!!! i'm in riot grrrl mode....which will soon be followed by a riot grrrl overload...& i hope my head does not explode!!! (wow--i wish i wasn't so lame!!! i wish i could write like i used to write!!!) another thing i have been thinking about is how being married has changed me. i mean i'm totally a better person. i'm way more grounded. i was just wandering hopelessly & aimlessly before that. i'm more stable now that i am married. but i'm becoming co-dependent. which is something i am very familar with--i 've done that with friends...& alcohol. whatever. ultimately it destroyed me....i love my husband more than anything but i need to find a way to separate myself from this dependency on him. it doesn't help that i may be getting a job where he works! we are together all the time & i love being with him cos he is also my best friend. we probably spend way too much time together.....i'm just worried that it's unhealthy. our marriage is very strong. it's lame & clique but he makes me whole...he's totally my"other half". i was walking around as half a person for years until he came along! but i dunno what would happen if he died ...i worry about loved ones dying all the time. but i honestly dunno what the fuck i would do if jamie died.....i'd probably die too.i know i'd hafta be strong if something like that ever happened but i dunno if i could be at this point. i need to find a way to be as empowered & inspired like i was when i discovered Riot Grrrl. so maybe that is the answer--maybe i just need to REdiscover Riot Grrrl.....

wow--i can't even remember the last time i ordered from Kill Rock Stars! & i am so outta the loop!!! it's sad....in 2003 my brother joaquin borrowed my Sleater Kinney cd "the hot rock". he accidently came back with a tatu cd inside the case. & so his ex boyfriend was running around with MY sleater kinney cd in his tatu cd case!!! GRRRR! they broke up so i haven't seen it since then & have had to live with a burned version of "the hot rock"so i FINALLY after about 4 years decided i had to have the actual cd cos this cdr is getting worn out so i ordered it today. along with some other goodies! i pretty much maxed out our new credit card! so i'm happy! :D i have gone thru all of these music phases over the years-emo,rockabilly,psychobilly---i think it's about time i get back to to my RIOT GRRRL ROOTS!!!!!!

The weekend was AWESOME! but i am soooo tired! so i will write about it later! i just wanted to post a few photos of my new tatooo! & jamie's tattoos that got started (they're not colored/shaded yet)

MY NEW TATTOO!!!:
     

Jamie's Graveyard tattoo:(a work in progress!!)
   

1. Have you ever cried during a tattoo?
not yet

2. When did you get your first tattoo?
homemade --16 i didn't  get a professional tattoo until i was about 24  ... i think

3. What was your first tattoo?
i gave myself a really bad operation ivy tattoo when i was 16! first pro tat was my "Daddy" tattoo.

4. Which tattoo is closest to your heart?
DADDY i got it when i found out my dad was dying cos he had brain cancer

5. Do you have a matching tattoo with someone?
me & jamie were gonna get matching anniversary tattoos but we both wanted other tats first so maybe next year!!

6. Do you have a tattoo that someone messed up on?
   when i was 21 i let some dumbass tattoo my leg. it's all thick & thin in different parts. not to mention he didn't use a shader to color it in--i was so dumb to let him do it! i got it to cover the bad op ivy so i covered one bad tattoo with another bad tattoo...

ALSO--aaron gave me a really bad drunk tattoo that i had covered up with a nautical star a few days later!!!

7. Do you have anyone’s name tattooed on you?my husbands name & our last name. & he has my name tattooed on his chest...

8. What was the most painful tattoo you received?
any of the tattoos on my inner arms i haven't been brave enough to get ink where i know it'll hurt really bad (neck,elbow,foot,back...i'm a chicken!)

9. How many tattoos do you have?
over 20

10. Do you plan on being heavily or moderately tattooed?
i plan to half half sleeves maybe someday i will change my mind & get full sleeves! but i dunno....when my half sleeves are done it will be time to find other places to get inked!!!

11. Do you have a tattoo that you constantly have to explain?
people always ask me what "Trading Punches" means

12. Have you ever gotten an infection from a tattoo?
yeah when i got my bad AAron tat covered it took forever to heal  PLUS a dog clawed it & took a chunk outta the tattoo! (bad week!!!)THEN  i used vitmin e oil on it (don't ask me why!) & i was allergic to it & got a rash so i had to go to the doctor & get antibiotics! that was ROUGH!!!!

13. Which one took the longest?
my doll tattoo

14. What is the biggest tattoo that you have and how long did it take?
the doll it probably took about 2 & a half hours

15. Did you tell your parents?
welll...yeah

16. Do you regret having gotten any of your tattoos?
i just wish i woulda gotten  some of them in different places so i'd have more room on my arms

17. Would you consider ever getting any of your tattoos removed?
never

18. What are you going to get for your next tattoo?on saturday i am getting this:

19. Do you think members of the opposite sex with a lot of tattoo are hot?
my husband is hot!

20. Are you unfortunate to have an arm band tattoo?
oh hell no!

21. How many people have tattooed you?
5

22. Do any of your tattoos have color?
most of them

i was just thinking about how for years i missed jamie g & amber & brandi so bad... i'd have a dream about one of them & be so sad that we weren't friends anymore cos they weren't in my life....& i had no idea where they were & it sucked cos we were all so close. then last year i got to hang out with jamie g. cos she was with josh & josh is one of (my husband) jamie's best friends....it was cool to hang out with her but everything that i DIDN'T like about her when we were younger started to reappear....she's just so .....LIKE HER MOM. back stabbing & two faced & i dunno......things that i thought i imagined when i was younger. i thought she was being a bitch & i thought she was being manipulative when we were teenagers but she somehow convinced me i was just imagining it. i believed she was my best friend & wouldn't betray or abandon me but she did it all the time. she always ditched me for boys & told me about her sex life but never wanted to hear about my experiences or my problems. IT WAS ALWAYS ABOUT HER. & last year i thought she had changed...she seemed to be different but then she got pregnant by josh & they broke up & she tried to control him &her true colors came out. it was so obvious--not only had she not changed at all--she was WORSE. so i was happy that we didn't get close again cos i found it very uncomfortable to even be around her...so we're not really friends..... then there's amber & brandi. i never thought i'd see them ever again cos i had no idea where they were....then amber's ex-husband's cousin saw my blog on my space where i wrote about how much i missed amber...& she gives me her phone number & we talk & then i get to hang out with her & brandi when they come to union city one night---after all the time that has passed since we have seen each other & they are still exactly the same!!! hanging out with them again was awesome cos i was still comfortable with them. we were all sitting together & it was like it was 10 years ago. i just wished they still lived around her so i could still see them & hang out....i need to get a birthday card for brandi & i owe amber a phone call

there was a big fire here in greenville on sunday. i've been watching the local news & keeping up on the story all week since it happened in the town where i live & i also discovered that i knew the girl that was involved....i mean i knew her when i was younger. her name is christy & her family lived down the street from me when i was about 9 until i was about 12. her younger brother elijah was in my class. they moved away when i was in 6th grade. i had no idea she even lived around here. & it sucks i had to find out this way--her 3 children were killed in the fire. it's really sad....especially now that it's been confirmed that the fire was set on purpose. i grabbed my camera & recorded the news broadcast about it (that's why the volume is so low & the picture is shaky) i just wanted to write about it & maybe if someone local sees this they can help out the family or something. there's places where you can make donations all over town.(information is at the end of the first video) it's just so sad....