BOOMANTEXAS XUTRX's blog: "MY DOODLES"

it not nearly all of it im just picking a spot and starting just to seee how it sounds...

...all of these feelings and emotions. kissing the way only two people in love can kiss. she might not be in love with me at this very moment but she was in love with me when we kissed, when i caressed the side of her face after and before i kiss her. If i could stay forever i know she would be mine, but i had to leave. the timing couldnt have been any more off then it was at that time. that one time when i knew i needed to stay most i had to leave. I had to drive away in suffocation cause i could not breathe. Could not feel my heart beating, it must've froze over solid. it was so heavy it dropped to my stomach. i felt light headed but i know its not real, ive been here before, its just pain. a worried, scared pain. worried because there is no certainty that i'll ever be able to experience what i did in that short time for the rest of my life. scared because i had no clue what i was going to do. for the first time i didnt know where to start to fix something, how to make it better. how can i be so gifted at healing others but right now i cant even comprehend how to mend my own heart of this vacancy, this void. she is and will forever be the most complete human being i'll ever have the chance to share a love with. i've tried recently to rid my heart of her but this war i wont win, she's staying there. without even knowing it she has a hold on me i will never break. like she stole pieces of my soul with soft tender kisses. like when i was caught staring into her eyes she hypnotized my spirit to only do what she wishes of me. if only she knew the power she held she could take over this world, and i'd be the traitor to all humanity who gives her the key. I wonder, where does love come from? i would say its some kind of magic or secret force that we'll never understand. Love can start a war and end one. Give life and take it. I could easily compare love to fire, beautiful and uncontrollable. it can make you feel warm inside when you're cold and empty. or, it could burn you and scar you for the rest of your life, as long as you let it......bla bla lol