BOOMANTEXAS XUTRX's blog: "MY DOODLES"

I awake the morning to her eyes staring down on me and her hand touching my face in a soft gentle way. I smiled and said "heey beautiful" in my weak morning voice and just remained to lay there and stare in her eyes. Then, 2mins later, she takes a deep breathe as her smirk turned into an amazing smile she said to me "I just love you so much baby" she moved closer, kissed me, looked into both of my eyes once more then got up to head to the bathroom. While i stay put in the bed we share. I think to myself. If thats what I'm blessed to wake up to for the rest of my life then I wish for immortality. I don't ever want this to come to an end. She touched my very soul with her hands and lips, froze my heart with her gaze and thoughtful words. When she left my side to get up I wanted to reach for her. Pull her back and just lay with her in my arms for just a few minutes more. At that moment, I looked to the left of me and saw the pillow she lays her head on next to mine. One this day, at this moment looking over at this vacant pillow I realize more then I ever have that I wont make it without her. Not now, now that its clear to me what the power of her love gives to me, reason to live. If there ever is a day I must wake without her I'll then plead that my lord and savior doesn't wake me at all. A world without her Isn't a world at all. Rather a deep dark abyss. I am aware that I have my own life to live. But i live for that one life that i could have with her. That's where my ultimate happiness lies. Inside that amazing woman whom loves me unconditionally. I'm not blinded like most fools are by love, I'm not one of those people. What I see in her. What i feel for her is very clear to me and the realest thing I've ever felt. I'll never find it in another nor will I ever love another the way I do her. I couldn't if i tried, my heart has mended with hers so she'll always have it. She is me. If I looked in the mirror right now I would see as my reflection because she is the very core of me. She pumps the blood through my veins and gives my lungs the air they need so I can breathe, she gives my eyes color so I can see all beautiful things and my body the energy to wake up in the morning because i know she'll be there. On this day, this morning after we made love for the first time. I've more then slipped, I've fallen, and I'll lay here for an eternity.

-BOOMANTEXAS