ICE's blog: "LOVE AND FORGIVENESS"

This song is the epitomy of how I feel about him.......

 

I love you, I love you, I love you

Baby, I love you; you are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete if you weren't by my side
You're my relation in connection to the sun
With you next to me there's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops, I am the seed
With you and God who's the sunlight I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud, proud to be your girl
You make the confusion go all away from this cold and mixed-up world

[Chorus]
I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
'Cause I'm dangerously in love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me the way I love you loving me
'Cause I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
'Cause I'm dangerously in love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me the way I love you loving me

And I know you love me, love me for who I am
'Cause years before I became who I am, baby, you were my man
I know it ain't easy, easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication from you to me
Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife and I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you sometimes make me want to cry
Realize all my blessings; I'm grateful to have you by my side

[Chorus]

Every time I see your face my heart smiles
Every time it feels so good it hurts sometimes
Created in this world to love, to hold, to feel, to breathe, to love you

Dangerously in love

[Chorus]  

WHO CAN REALLY SAY WHAT HAPPINESS IS OR ISNT? CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT HAPPINESS IS OR ISNT? WHEN I SEE MY FRIENDS FOR THAT MOMENT I FEEL WHAT I THINK IS HAPPINESS BUT IS IT REALLY HAPPINESS? WHEN I SPEND TIME WITH MY FRIENDS I FEEL WHAT I THINK IS HAPPINESS BUT IS IT REALLY HAPPINESS? WHEN HE SAYS "I GET LOST IN THE BEAUTY OF YOUR FACE OR THE SPARKLE OF YOUR SMILE OR THE TWINKLE IN YOUR EYE", I FEEL WHAT I THINK IS HAPPINESS BUT IS IT REALLY HAPPINESS? WHEN HE SAYS "I LOVE YOU, I WANT YOU, I NEED YOU", I FEEL WHAT I THINK IS HAPPINESS BUT IS IT REALLY HAPPINESS? HAPPINESS TO ME WAS THE LITTLE BOY I GAVE BIRTH TO AND GAVE TO GOD ALL WITHIN A 4 HR SPAN. I CAN TRULY SAY I WAS HAPPY WHEN I GAVE BIRTH TO HIM AND YES HE BROUGHT HAPPINESS INTO MY LIFE. THE HAPPINESS WAS THE 5 1/2 GESTATIONAL TIME PERIOD THAT WE SPENT TOGETHER. HAPPINESS WAS WATCHING HIM TAKE THOSE THREE TIME LITTLE GASPS OF AIR. HAPPINESS WAS FEELING HIS HEARTBEAT FOR 4 HOURS, BUT MY HAPPINESS ENDED WHEN HIS HEART STOPPED BEATING. YES, WHEN MY SON DIED AT 8:48 AM ON MARCH 12TH, I DIED WITH HIM. WHAT YOU THINK YOU KNOW AND WHO YOU THINK YOU KNOW IS WHAT I WANT AND ALLOW YOU TO KNOW. THING IS I AM NOT ALONE, THERE ARE MANY WOMEN OUT HER JUST LIKE ME, FOR MANY DIFFERENT REASON OF THEIR OWN. SO YEAH WE GO TROUGH UPS AND DOWNS, MORE DOWNS THAN UPS AND WE HIDE OUR DAMAGED AND SCARRED SOULS BETTER THAN MOST. WE WANT TO BE LOVED BUT WE LOVE MORE THAN WE ARE [LOVED]. WE HURT MORE THAN OTHERS BUT WE HIDE BETTER THAN MOST. WE GIVE MORE THAN WE GET BUT FEEL HAPPINESS WHEN WE GET IT, SO WHEN THAT HAPPINESS IS TAKEN AWAY FROM US WE TAKE IT HARDER THAN THE AVERAGE PERSON. I DONT EXPECT YOU TO BE LIKE ME OR HAVE SYMPATHY FOR ME BUT THE ONE THING I WILL COMMAND IS YOUR RESPECT AND ASK FOR YOUR EMPATHY.

HE SAID: I LOVE YOU SHE SAID: I LOVE YOU TOO HE SAID: LOVE ME FOREVER SHE SAID: I WILL HE SAID: WILL YOU MARRY ME? SHE SAID: YES HE SAID: WILL YOU HAVE AS MANY CHILDREN AS IT TAKES TO MAKE A BASEBALL TEAM WITH ME? SHE SAID: YES AND MORE IF YOU WANT THEM. 3 MONTHS LATER HE SAID: I DONT WANT TO GET MARRIED. SHE SAID: WHY, WAS IT SOMETHING I DID? HE SAID: I DONT WANT TO HAVE ANY CHILDREN WITH YOU. SHE SAID: BUT YOU PROMISED. HE SAID: I DONT LOVE YOU ANYMORE. AS SHE LOOKED DOWN IN HER HAND AT THE GREEN AND WHITE PILLS, SHE SAID: I LOVE YOU FOREVER. THIS WILL ENSURE THAT I NEVER LOVE ANOTHER MAN THE WAY I LOVE YOU. HER EULOGY SAID: I LOVED HIM FOREVER BUT HE DIDNT LOVE ME BACK FOREVER. NOW HE WILL KNOW WHAT FOREVER MEANT TO ME. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU PLAY GAMES WITH NOT ONLY THE HEAD BUT THE HEART.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF SOMEONE YOU LOVED TOLD YOU THAT THEY DIDNT WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE? WHAT WOULD YOU SAY? HOW WOULD YOU FEEL? WHO WOULD YOU BLAME? WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF SOMEONE YOU LOVED TOLD YOU THEY WERE NOT HAPPY AND THERE WAS NOTHING YOU COULD DO TO MAKE THEM HAPPY? IF I SAID TO YOU THAT I WANTED TO DIE RIGHT NOW AND ASKED YOU TO FORGIVE ME FOR WHAT I AM ABOUT TO, WOULD YOU? WOULD YOU FORGET ABOUT ME OR REMIND THE WORLD OF ME?

OK HERE I AM AGAIN, I JUST FEEL LIKE TALKING ABOUT CHIT. SO TODAY IT IS GOING TO BE CHERRY TAP DRAMA. I DONT KNOW ABOUT MANY OF YOU BUT I HAVE A REAL LIFE AND CHERRY TAP IS WHERE I COME TO RELAX, HAVE FUN AND PLAY. ITS STARTING TO BECOME LESS FUN FOR ME BECAUSE OF THE BICKERING AND THE HATING AND THE DOWN RIGHT JUST PLAIN LE MEANESS ON HERE. I HAVE LOTS OF FRIENDS, FAMILY AND A FEW FANS, I LOVE THEM ALL BUT BEING TOTALLY HONEST AND NOT MEANING TO HURT ANYONES FEELINGS OR STEP ON ANYONES TOES, I REALLY COULD CARE LESS IF YOU LIKE ME OR DONT LIKE ME. MY PROFILE SPEAKS THAT LOUDLY. I SEND OUT FRIEND REQUEST JUST LIKE I GET FRIEND REQUEST AND YOU CAN REST ASSURED THAT YES I ACCEPT ALL FRIEND REQUEST EVEN IF MINE ARENT ACCEPTED. I MAKES ME NO NEVERMIND HERE NOR THERE. I HAVE MET SOME TRUELY WONDERFUL PEOPLE ON HERE AND I HAVE SOME AWESOME FAMILY MEMEBERS ON HERE FROM A TOTALLY DIFFERENT SITE THAT WE NORMALLY HANG OUT ON, BUT I DO NOT HAVE TIME TO SIT HERE AND SAY THIS PERSON IS FAKE OR I DONT LIKE THIS PERSON BECAUSE THEY HAVE A HIGHER RATING THAN ME, TIS WHY I PUT IT IN MY CHERY TAP NAME, FAKE ASSES AND HATERS STEP OFF. I DONT HAVE TIME FOR THAT CHILDISH CHIT. I AM WHO I AM AND U HAVE ONE OF TWO CHOICES, LOVE IT OR LUMP. ITS STRICTLY UP TO YOU WHAT YOU DO BECAUSE I CANT CONTROL U OR CHANGE U. I CAN ONLY ACCEPT U FOR THE PERSON THAT U ARE SO ACCEPT ME AS I AM OR TAKE NOTHING AT ALL. ANYWHOOOO I HAVE BABBLED ON ENOUGH, AM GONNA GO RAID SOME PAGES NOW. OH AND ONE MORE THING, WHAT IS IT WITH THIS BLOCKING ISSUE? OK SO WHAT IF THE PERSON YOU BLOCKED CAN STILL COME TO YOUR PAGE. IF THEY ARE STILL COMING TO YOUR PAGE THEN THAT SHOULD TELL YOU SOMETHING, THEY EITHER STILL WANT YOU OR THEY WANT TO AGGRIVATE YOU. WITH ME IT THE LATER, WHAT IS THE USE IN BLOCKING SOMEBODY, IF I DONT WANT TO TALK TO YOU THEN I SIMPLY IGNORE YOU. IF I DONT LIKE THE COMMENT YOU LEAVE ON MY PAGE OR PICS THEN I SIMPLY DELETE IT AND KEEP ON MOVING. WHY WE GOTTA GO POSTING HATE BULLETINS AND ALL THAT CRAP. CANT WE ALL JUST GET ALONG? ALL I AM SAYING IS LET LOOSE THE HATERATION, THE JEALOUSY AND THE ENVY. I DONT KNOW ABOUT YAWL BUT GREEN IS SO NOT MY COLOR. OK OK FOR REAL I AM GOING TO RAID SOME PAGES WITH LOVE AND MY FAV SEX. TALK ATCHA LATER PEEPS, KISSESSSSSSSSSSSS ICE

OK ALL I CAN SAY IS SWEET JESUS OMG, FIRST OF ALL, I SPENT THE BETTER PART OF SEVERAL HOURS YESTERDAY BEING CALLED ALL KINDS OF NAMES BECAUSE I ACCEPTED A YES TO MY CT MARRIAGE BULLETIN AND ADDED HIM TO MY DISPLAY NAME, NEXT I READ A BULLETIN ABOUT A GUY NAMED EMO AND I'M THINKING GOOD GOD THIS IS JUST THE INTERNET. THIS IS A PLACE TO COME AND HAVE FUN AND MEET NEW PEOPLE AND POSSIBLY MAKE FRIENDS. THIS IS NOT REAL LIFE. PEOPLE PLEASE DONT TAKE THIS SO SERIOUSLY. LIFE IS STRESSFUL ENOUGH WITHOUT ADDING STRESS HERE. WHY RAISE YOUR BLOOD PRESSURE UNNECESSARILY? DARLINS, BABIES, PLEASE, LET THE HATE GO AND SHOW SOME LOVE. HATERATIONS IS JUST LIKE STRESS, IT KILLS. HONESTLY IS IT REALLY WORTH POPPIN BLOOD VESSELS OVER? LOVE HUGS AND KISSES ICE

DAMN I'M GETTIN MY SMOKE AND MY DRINK ON AND I FEEL LIKE TYPING SOME SHIT JUST BECAUSE. FOR THOSE WHO HAVE READ MY LAST BLOGS, WORD OF ADVICE, SQUASH THAT SHIT BECAUSE I HAVE. I'M DONE WITH THAT SHIT, MOVIN ON TO BETTER ANS SEXIER THINGS. I DIDNT COME TO CT TO FIND THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND FALL IN LOVE. I NEVER CHASED OR APPROACHED A DAMN SOUL. IT WAS THE OTHER WAY AROUND. ANYWHOOOOOOOO BOTTOM LINE IS THIS, I GUYS, I LIKE GURLS, I LIKE ROCK, I LIKE RAP, I LOVE ANGELS AND I LOVE GOTH. I AM ME AND THAT IS ALL I WILL EVER BE. NO I AINT A SKINNY CHICK SO IF THAT IS WHAT YOU ARE LOOKING FOR, YA IN THE WRONG SPOT. I AM HOWEVER ONE BIG BEAUTIFUL BITCH AND WILL LET YOU KNOW IT. I GIVE TITS N ASS A WHOLE BRAND NEW MEANING. I'M NOT HERE TO MOTHER OR YA LOVER JUST YA FRIEND AND DEPENDING ON HOW MUCH I AM INTO TO YOU THERE MAYBE SOME BENEFITS WITH THAT FRIENDSHIP. SO IF YA LOOKIN FOR A FRIEND, I'M YA GURL BUT IF YA LOOKIN TO HATE THEN STEP THE FOOK OFF BECAUSE I AINT GOT TIME. IF YA ASS IS FAKE THEN STEP THE FOOK OFF BECAUSE AGAIN, I AINT GOT TIME. I'M ALL ABOUT LOVE AND THOSE THAT LOVE ME. I GUESS WHAT I'M TRYIN TO SAY IS LETS ALL CHILL AND HAVE FUN AND LEAVE A LASTING INPRESSION ON CT. STOP THE HATEIN AND START LOVEIN. KISSES DARLINS

OK I DID THINGS YOUR WAY AND YOU STILL CONTINUE TO ACT LIKE AN ASS. THIS AINT ABOUT ME SUPPOSEDLY USING YOU AND LYING TO YOU. THIS IS IS ABOUT THE FACT THAT I HAVE PUBLICLY ANNOUNCED ANOTHER MAN AS MY CT HUBBY. BLOCK ME ALL YOU WANT I COULD CARE FUCKIN LESS. YOU CANT ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOU LOST, AND IF THERE IS SOMETHING YOU WANT TO SAY TO THIS MAN, THEN MAN UP BITCH AND SAY IT. DONT GIVE ME SHIT BECAUSE YOU "CANT BE A MAN ABOUT IT". I NEVER LIED TO YOU WHEN I TOLD YOU THAT I LIKE NO I LOVE PLAYING WITH GIRLS AND BABY THAT AINT NEVER GONNA CHANGE. YOU SAY I'M DEAD TO WELL THEN KEEP IT THAT WAY. I REFUSE TO TAKE ANYMORE OF YOUR INSULTS. THE ONLY I DIDNT TELL YOU IS THAT I HAVE A MOTTO I LIVE BY "MUTHA MADE YA, MUTHAFUCK YA". SO DO US BOTH A FAVOR KEEP MY ASS ON BLOCK AND STAY OFF MY PROFILE TRYING TO SEE WHO HAS THE POTENTIAL TO GET WHAT YOU COULD HAVE HAD. YOU MADE ME DO THIS. KISSES DARLIN

OK WELL HERE I AM AGAIN ADMITTING THAT IT WAS ALL ME. I AM THE BE BAD GUY IN ALL OF THIS. I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO LOVE AND APPRECIATE THE MAN WHO SAYS I HAVE MADE HIM LOOK LIKE THE BAD GUY. HE DID NOTHING WRONG, I DID IT ALL. I WAS A BITCH TO HIM AND HE DIDNT DESERVE IT. SO I GUESS I AM THE DEAD ASS HE CALLED ME. I GUESS I AM THE STUPID BITCH HE CALLED ME. I GUESS I AM THE PSYCHOTIC FRUITCAKE HE CALLED ME. SO YES THAT MAKES ME THE BAD GUY. SO I GUESS THAT MEANS THAT HE IS TOO GOOD FOR ME AND THAT I DONT DESERVE TO BREATHE THE SAME AIR HE DOES. ANYWAY SINCE I AM SUCH A PSYCHOTIC BITCH, FRUITCAKE AND DEAD ASS WHO DOESNT CARE ABOUT BUT MYSELF, I'VE DECIDED THAT I WILL NO LONGER PUT MYSELF OUT BY TRYING TO BE HIS FRIEND AND I WILL AGREE TO EVERYTHING HE HAS TO SAY ABOUT ME. I'M SURE YOU'VE ALL SEEN MY TRUE. I'VE BEEN NOTHING BUT A BITCH TO EVERYONE ON CHERRYTAP AND FOR THAT I SINCERELY APOLOGIZE. I'M SO SORRY I WAS NICE TO YOU GUYS AND ONLY TRIED TO MAKE FRIENDS HERE. KISSES DARLINS