ICE's blog: "LOVE AND FORGIVENESS"

YOU DID NOT WANT ME. YOU CHOSE TO BE A BOY AND NOT A MAN. YOU CHOSE TO BLOCK ME FROM YOUR LIFE NOT I. I ASKED COULD WE NOT BE FRIENDS, YOU CHOSE NOT TO RESPOND SO I TOOK THAT AS A NO WE CANT BE BE FRIENDS. THAT IS YOUR CHOICE, THE OFFER STILL STANDS HERE. WHAT I WILL NOT DEAL WITH IS YOU TRYING TO TARE ME DOWN ANYMORE. YOU CANT HURT ME ANYMORE. YOU CANT MAKE ME CRY ANYMORE. MY FRIENDS SAY THAT YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME, YOU SAY YOU DONT WANT ME. SO WHY TRY TO BRING TENSION TO ME ABOUT ANOTHER MAN. MY NEW BOYFRIEND AS YOU CALLED HIM. I STOPPED DEALING WITH BOYS WHEN YOU WALKED AWAY. FUNNY HOW YOU'RE BEST FRIEND EMAILS ME ABOUT MY "NEW BOYFRIEND" AND HOW I LIED ABOUT YOU IN MY BLOGS AND HOW SHE SAW OUR CHAT CONVERSATION AND HOW SHE CAN NO LONGER BE MY FRIEND BECAUSE I WAS NICE TO YOU TO HUMOR HER. SWEETHEART, I NEVER HAD HER OR YOU FOR THAT MATTER, I JUST HAD YOUR HEAD GAMES BUT NOT ANYMORE. YOU MIGHT WANT TO TELL HER THAT THE NEXT TIME SHE SAYS SHES SEEN MY BLOGS THAT THE RECENT VIEWERS REFLECT HER AND NOT YOU. MAYBE YOU SHOULD CHECK OUT MY PROFILE AGAIN AND SEE THE MESSAGES THAT WERE MEANT FOR YOU. KISSES DARLIN

JUST BECAUSE WE NO LONGER SAY I LOVE YOU, CAN WE NOT BE FRIENDS? JUST BECAUSE WE ARE NO LONGER THE CENTER OF EACH OTHER'S UNIVERSE, CAN WE NOT BE FRIENDS? JUST BECAUSE YOU SAY I HURT YOU AND I SAY YOU HURT ME, CAN WE NOT BE FRIENDS? JUST BECAUSE WE ARE NO LONGER A COUPLE, CAN WE NOT BE FRIENDS? JUST BECAUSE THE WORLD IS FULL OF UNHAPPY NO LONGER IN LOVE PEOPLE, MUST WE TOO BE UNHAPPY, CAN WE NOT BE FRIENDS? WHY MUST WE PLAY THE YOU BLOCK ME I BLOCK YOU GAME, CAN WE NOT BE FRIENDS? ALL I WANT TO KNOW IS CAN WE NOT BE FRIENDS?

WHAT DO YOU SEE WHEN YOU LOOK AT ME? DO YOU SEE A BIG BEAUTIFUL WOMAN, WHO IS PROUD OF SHE IS, WHO LOVES HERSELF FOR THE PERSON SHE IS, WHO REFUSES TO ADHERE TO A SOCIETY WHO SAYS SHE SHOULD LOOK OR FEEL SEXY AND BEAUTIFUL. DO YOU SEE A FAT DESPERATE WOMAN, WHO WILL SETTLE FOR ANYTHING AND ANYBODY? A FAT DESPERATE WOMAN WILL TAKE ANY ABUSE BE IT PHYSICAL, MENTAL OR EMOTIONAL? A FAT DESPERATE WOMAN WHO WILL LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU DONT LOVE HER? DO YOU SEE A SMART, BEAUTIFUL, INTELLEGENT, WELL PUT TOGETHER WOMAN OR JUST SOMTHEING YOU CAN CALL ON WHEN YOU'RE NUT SACK IS FULL AND YOU NEED TO UNLOAD AND GET GHOST BEFORE THE NEIGHBORS SEE YOU? SO TELL ME WHAT DO YOU SEE WHEN YOU LOOK AT ME? DO YOU SEE A WOMAN WHO IS FULL OF LOVE AND NUTURING THAT DESERVES TO BE LOVED AND TREATED LIKE THE QUEEN SHE IS? DO YOU SEE YOUR FUTURE WIFE AND MOTHER OF YOUR CHILDREN? PERHAPS YOU SEE A WHORE WHO IS MEANT FOR NOTHING MORE THAN YOUR OWN PERSONAL CUMBAG.

I GAVE YOU MY HEART WHEN IT BELONGED TO ANOTHER. ANOTHER THAT WAS SUPPOSEDLY YOUR BEST FRIEND. YOU CAN LOVE 2 PEOPLE IS WHAT YOU SAID TO ME BUT IN ORDER FOR ME TO LOVE ONE I HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO LOVE THE OTHER. WHEN I LOST YOUR LOVE IT SEEMS I LOST HER LOVE TOO. ISN'T THAT IRONIC? WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON HERE? I GET EXCUSES FROM YOU FOR HER, I GET EXCUSES FROM HER AS TO WHY SHE CAN'T SEE ME OR TALK TO ME BUT SHE WANTS ME TO BE HAPPY WITH YOU. YOU HAVE DONE THE WORSE POSSIBLE THING A PERSON COULD OR WOULD DO TO ANOTHER PERSON. YOU LIED AND PRETENDED TO BE SOMETHING AND SOMEONE YOU'RE NOT. IS THAT WHAT YOU'RE LIFE HAS BEEN REDUCED TO? DECEIT, IMPERSONATION, UTTER LIES FOR LOVE? YOU WILL NEVER BE HAPPY, YOU WILL NEVER FIND LOVE UNTIL YOU FACE WHO YOU REALLY ARE AND LET THE REAL YOU SHINE THROUGH. SO YOU CAN STOP USING ME AS AN EXCUSE TO HATE BECAUSE LIKE I TOLD YOU IN THE BEGINNING I AM A SURVIVOR AND I WILL ALWAYS COME OUT ON TOP. ALL YOU EVER HAD TO DO WAS TELL THE TRUTH, BE HONEST AND BE TRUE TO YOURSELF FIRST. THIS WAS WRITTEN FOR A FORMER FRIEND WHO I KNOW WILL NEVER SEE IT BECAUSE HE IS TOO AFRAID TO FACE THE TRUTH.

YOU SAY YOU LOVE ME SO WHY CANT YOU FORGIVE ME? YOU SAY YOU NEED ME SO WHY CANT YOU FORGIVE ME? YOU SAY YOU WANT ME SO WHY CANT YOU FORGIVE ME? AM I NOT HUMAN? AM I NOT ALLOWED TO MAKE MISTAKES? AM I NOT ALLOWED TO BE SCARED? IS IT NOT OK FOR ME TO MAKE ONE SIMPLE MISTAKE AND NOT BE THROWN AWAY LIKE I AM TRASH? DO YOU NOT MAKE MISTAKE OR IS IT THAT YOU'RE SO PERFECT YOU'RE NOT EVEN HUMAN? DO YOU LOVE WHEN IT IS CONVENIENT FOR YOU AND DISMISS WHEN IT IS NOT? TELL AM I NOT PRETTY ENOUGH FOR YOU? AM I NOT SUBMISSIVE ENOUGH FOR YOU? DO I NOT KISS YOUR ASS ENOUGH FOR YOU? YOU TELL ME WHAT IT IS YOU NEED AND I WILL MOST LIKELY DIE TRYING TO GIVE IT TO YOU BECAUSE YOU SEE I'LL WILL ALREADY BE DEAD BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE YOU, BECAUSE YOU DIDNT WANT ME, BECAUSE I DIDNT FIT IN TO YOUR PERFECT LITTLE WORLD.

HEY HEY HEY WHATS UP MY CHERRY POPPERS? THIS CHICKA IS OFF WORK IN ABOUT 40 MINS AND GOING STRAIGHT HOME AND HOPE HER HOT ASS ON PALTALK IN ROOM TITTIES, TATS AND TUNES. COME JOIN ME IF YA CAN CAUSE THAT IS WHERE I WILL BE PARTYING TONIGHT. ALL YA DAMN HOTTIES ARE WELCOMED TO CUM PLAY ME AND MT FRIENDS TONIGHT. THE LINK IS HTTP://WWW.PALTALK.COM MY NIC IS CUTENSXYEBNYBBW SO LOOK ME UP AND CUM PLAY WITH ME. KISSESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS