FENB DSC's blog: "lost"

bf application Body: bf application Body: If you're a boy, title this girlfriend application and if you're a girl then title this boyfriend application. Repost this and see who's eligible to be your special someone. Have fun!! Send it back in a message if you think you could get the job... :) lol Name: Age: Phone Location: Height: Hair (color and style): Eyes: Piercings/tattoos: What Do You Think Of My? Personality: Eyes: Face: Hair: Clothes: Humor: Choice of music: Manners: Friends: Decisions: W0ULD Y0U... [] go out with me? [] give me your number? [] kiss me? [] let me kiss you? [] watch a movie with me? [] take me out to dinner? [] drive me somewhere? [] make love to me? [] take a shower with me? [] be my bf/gf? [] hug me? [] buy me food? [] take me home to meet your family? [] would you let me sleep in your bed if I didn't have one? [] smoke pot? [] sing car karaoke w/ me? [] sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone? [] re-post this for me to answer your questions? [] give me a piggyback ride? [] come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere? D0 Y0U... [] think I'm cute? [] want to do me? [] want to kiss me? [] want to cuddle with me? [] want to hook up with me? HAVE Y0U EVER... [] thought about me? [] thought there might be an "US"? [] thought about hooking up with me? [] found yourself wanting to kiss me? []wished I were there? Answer truthfully and send it back to the person who posted it, no holding back! Once you send it i'll return the favor! Go!

i have talked to a few people on here an they made me think alot about my self an this place if i didnt show up on here would any one notice maybe a few the ones in my lounge family an a couple poeple out side the lounge but any way i look at my self an i was letting this place eat me alive so if i am not here all the time i am still here an the ones that dont noticed well its ok

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i have gotten two wounderful kids been through a couple of bad relationships an i would not have changed it because now i have a voice to say what i want what i want i want a man to love me an my kids enjoy life being together doing things as a family on top of that if he has kids well a big family is better then know family he needs to love the out doors enjoy watching movies curled up on the couch eatting popcorn playing an working in the yard going to the ocean an sitting on the beach that enjoys just being together know sound no words that knows what i am thinking before i do a when he looks at me he needs know one but me an he makes me feel the same

where to start born in portland my parents are still married i have a sister an a brother i have 9 nices an nephews i have been divorced 11 yeasrs i have a son an a daughter 12 an 6 they have diffrent fathers an i am friends with both i am a surviver of dimestic violince an two years clean of drugs witch i gave five years of my life to my friends in my real life i have had for twenty years or more i am close to my family i have a few friends on here that i can count on to tell me the truth if i ask one inspired me to wright this i am still a little screwed up in the sence still working to get on my feet an get where i wont to be in life i dont have some big sad story just life lived an learnd every day something new is learned i have pc friends that i chatt with never knowing any thing about them others i know more falling for any one here is proply not the best idea i live a world where there is love finding it hard an may never happen but hell thats life i know i love my children an my family an if that is the only love i ever have well then i lived a great life i want to find that great loved but i have looked an now i am going to let it fined me if its out there an if its real i hope it fines me

WHEN I LOOK IN YOUR EYES WHEN I HEAR YOU VOICE WHEN I SEE YOUR WORDS OR MY SCREEN FEEL SAFE AN HAPPY BUT WHEN YOU LOSE THE WORDS AN THE VOICE IS GONE AN ALL YOU HAVE LEFT IS THE PICS OF YOUR EYES WHAT IS LEFT BUT THE TEARS FROM MY EYES

i live throgh a pc i fined you get hurt less but i was wrong i think of it as a game most the time but when you fine one that makes you feel more then you ever should its hard to disiffer between reality an make belaeve you want to beleave so much that what is said is true you begin to beleave it an then you get that lost pain that makes no sence that do they realy want me , do they say the same things to every one or is it true that they want you an only you an then the hole thing begins to eat at you they rember your name but do they know your fav color or fav flower what you realy want

i am at the point where i am lost on what is real an what is not one day i feel nothing but then i have nothing but a rush of feelings i hate the days that there are feelings its a sweep of uncontroled pain happiness an angeer not knowing how to get rid of it