I don't know how much more I can take living in this damn house. I have to fight for the phone all the time just so I can call my kids and its not like I am on the phone for fucking hours... OH hell no I am only on the phone for maybe 15 mins thats all the time my kids get from me everyday. Because I can't talk any longer than that because she is constanlty saying I need the phone or are you done yet? I hate it and she walks around this house like she fucking owns it. No one knocks on our door they just walk in half the time I am dressing and someone is always walking in. I clean this room daily and sometimes more than once a day. They leave their fucking trash and cups down here dont know how to clean up after them selfs at all. And then to come down here and look at me and say where is my glass Well dont leave your damn stirofoom cups down her and I wont throw them away.I swear it is taking everything in me to not blow the fuck up/ I didnt even eat tonight because the sink and counters were full of dishes and no one will do them. We dont eat here much we eat at his mom's and when we do we buy our own and fix it and clean up our mess but oh hell no... no one else can. So I didnt eat because I couldnt even use the kitchen. And I refuse to clean up after that damn pig when she is here shitb hits the fan she is always acting like its her house and shit I left the oven on and she came down here and was like"who left the oven on?"I said I did but Adam had already turned it off so it wasnt even on when she asked or anything and it had only been on for maybe 10 extra mins.I can't take it no more here not at all. I am a fucking wreck. This is what is causing most of my emotional problems. I cant take it the talking behind my back and shit like that.Why are poeple like that why do poeple have to be mean. I am a vbery nice sweet natured person and would go out of my way to be nice to someone no matter what. And then people treat me like this. I am so sick of it. I refuse to stay here tomorrow I will walk anywhere and come back when Adam is home. But I will not stay here any more. I wish I knew if Adam understood where I was coming from on this. I cant take sitting in this house in this room really I dont go in the rest of the house at all. I sit in this damn room all day with no privacy nothing.I cant live here no more this is making me fucking insane and I mean insane I am gonna lose it and its not gonna be pretty. I put up with so much crap in this house he has no clue what its like for me. I have no friends to go hang with or anything I sit here all day by myself, with a dog and a cat for company and of course people sitting in here on this computer and our tv all day. I cant even be sick in fucking peace. Or even take a shower for petes sakes.I was shaving one day and she walked in and didnt knock or anything and here I was in the tub naked and has all my stuff showing cause I was shaving and she seen it all.I cant take it no more I dont know how many times I am gonna say iot but I sure as hell mean it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
