Deja's blog: "LIFE ... =)"

Well I may not be around much within the next few days since my cousin passed away on wednesday morning. It bothers me that my daughter & i just had breakfast on monday morning ... he came around on tuesday and next thing i know i get "the call" letting me know that he was found deceased in the morning ... wow what a bomb ... so needless to say this is gonna suck because i have family coming from everywhere, so California & all and they are in for a major let down since i live in a little itty bitty place in Oklahoma. But regardless ... the next few days are gonna be stressfull. =(

Last night i realized my children are growing up ... what a hard lesson. My daughter's are both 18 (mixed family ... lol) and one just had a baby 2 months prior ... they now want to move! WOW!! I think i wen from feeling hurt, to scared, to anxious ... i probably can name more emotions ... just plain OVERWHELMED!!! It didn't seem to hurt so much when it was my boys ... (dunno why) but my girls ... it just seems to SUCK! But i have all the faith that i raised them right ... and they WILL BE OK!! But I WILL BE WATCHING .... does anyone else know what i am going thru??? Any advise???