TO ALL MY FRIENDS ON HERE.. SORRY I HAVE BEEN VERY DISTANT AS OF LATE.. ITS BEEN A REAL HARD ROAD FOR ME. LOTS OF STRESS AND DEPRESSION LATELY.. WE HAVE LOST A BABY COUSIN THAT WAS ONLY A YEAR OLD.. IT'S STILL UNDER INVESTIGATION AS TO WHAT HAPPENED... ITS NOT EASY FOR US AT THE MOMENT...
WE ARE MOVING IN STRIDES TO TRY AND HEAL THE HURT THAT IS SO UNBEARABLE.. ITS TAKING TIME... AND A LOT OF ENERGY. PUT WE ARE DOING THE BEST WE CAN. I DON'T THINK THE HURT IS EVER GOING TO STOP..
ALSO JUST THE STRESS OF DAILY LIFE SEEMS TO BE MAKING IT WORSE.. I AM JUST THANKFUL FOR THE FEW GOOD CLOSE FRIENDS I HAVE.. AND MY FAMILY I HAVE THAT CARES..
I JUST WANTED TO LET EVERYONE KNOW WHY I AM NOT REALLY MYSELF... I ALSO LEFT THE FREAK SHOW FAMILY.. A LOT OF STRESS HAS BEEN TAKEN OF ME FOR THAT.. I LOVED THE FAMILY AND I HELPED CREATED IT. BUT THE LOVE AND BOND THAT WAS THERE WHEN IT WAS STARTED ISN'T THERE ANYMORE..
NO ONE CARES IF ANYTHING HAPPENS AND NO ONE TRIED TO HELP ANYONE ELSE.. WELL LET ME CORRECT THAT.. VERY FEW TRIED.. WE HAD WELL OVER 50 MEMBERS I BELIEVE AND MAYBE 12 CARED ENOUGH TO DO ANYTHING.. IN MY EYES THATS NOT WHAT A FAMILY DOES, OR IS ABOUT..
IT SHOULD BE ABOUT GETTING CLOSE TO EACH OTHER AND CARING FOR EACH OTHER AND BE WILLING TO HELP OUT ALL MEMBERS.. I COULDN'T TAKE THE STRESS OF DOING IT ALL BY MYSELF AND TRYING TO KEEP THE FAMILY TOGETHER..
I HAD VERY LITTLE HELP IN THAT AREA... A FEW WERE THERE TO HELP ME NO MATTER WHAT.. BUT SOME OF THE FEW WERE NEWER MEMBERS THAT I GOT CLOSE TO.. TO ME IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ALL THAT HELPED.. EVEN IF IT WAS JUST A REPOST OF A BULLETIN.. MOST DIDN'T EVEN DO THAT..
BUT ANYWAYS ENOUGH OF THAT... I MAY NOT BE ON MUCH THIS WEEKEND OR FOR A LITTLE... I WILL SIGN IN ONCE IN AWHILE TO CHECK MY STUFF AND RATE THOSE THAT HAVE RATED ME.. OTHER THEN THAT I THINK I NEED A BREAK.. USUALLY EVERYONE SEES ME SIGNED ON ALL THAT TIME.. AND THAT MAY STILL HAPPEN.. BUT I LEAVE MY PC ON AND AM NOT USUALLY NEAR IT.. SO IF U SEE THAT, DON'T TAKE IT AS I AM AT MY PC..
OH WELL I THINK I BLABBERED ENOUGH FOR NOW... LOVE YOU ALL...
FREAK OF THE IRISH
