DJ Dariano's blog: "Life shit"

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A mother and child see each other for what seems like the last time, her ex-husband doesnt know he has crossed the line. Who ever knows if they will be reunited again, seems loving that man was her only sin. Democrates fight each other for their place on the ticket. Both are at each other's throats, in it to win it. The grand ol party nominee runs unopposed, seems that war and politics is all the man knows. As the world still turns all around me. Life continues to go on with or without me. And I'm still left here standing, unable to move. Stuck right here, still as can be. Husband and wife look back at their first home, as the bank forclosed, the streets they now daily roam. Factories and big business close down every day. How did the economy turn out this way? There is a man dieing alone, no one around that seems to care. he is drawing on his last breath, no family with love to share. Next door a boy's home is not safe for him to stay. Where is his hero? Why is he beaten each and every day? As the world still turns all around me. Life continues to go on with or without me. And I'm still left here standing, unable to move. Stuck right here, still as can be. A young man is trapped in the wreckage, he feels he is left to die. He lays their helpless watching other motorists passing on by. Lossing all hope as no one stops to assist. No matter how long his screams for help continue to persist. As the world still turns all around me. Life continues to go on with or without me. And I'm still left here standing, unable to move. Stuck right here, still as can be. How are any of us to move on?

driving confused, where am I have I been here before I should know this area out of gas where is the turn off? there whats happening loosing control road is no longer under my tires mountain is coming upon me quick airbag deploy I am spinning rolling I stop finally life flashing pain blood all over I cant move Im trapped I scream for help no one hears I throw things out of my car no one sees I see people drive past me NO ONE STOPS I black out I see my friend last time I saw her we were at her funeral she sees me too she asks me what I am doing there look of confusion on her face I see my car again In ruins still cant move still trapped will I see my family again will I see those I love again still see people driving by still no one stops I see my arm. its pinned underneath my car will I ever get rescued? will I ever get out of here? Is there someone that will help me? I see the darkness again I am too weak and tired to fight it I give up What is that? am I hallucinating? Did I hear someone? Did someone finally stop? Yes there is someone He is on the phone calling for help in the distance I hear the sirens are they really coming for me? are they coming to help me? There is another person and then a rescue car three people push my car so I can move my arm my arm is free the car is dropped now there is a swarm of activity people all around noises beyond compare someone crawls in asks me my name asks me if im okay I dont know how to answer im in so much pain I can barely stay awake I can barely talk I can barely think I just want to sleep I just want to slip away a blanket is put over me to protect me from glass and metal and sparks there is this loud horrific noise I know they are cutting the car open the metal coffin I almost claimed there is an end in sight? the man looks very worried now the noise stop he is very frantic he tells them we have to go now we are loosing him I can feel myself being moved I can only see darkness I barely hear the words meer weak far off mumbling I awake im being rushed down a hallway all I feel is pain i am alone where is my family, my loved ones please someone tell them what happened tell them im alive tell them I made it tell them I won.

I just had another surgery cause my site got infected where I had the first surgery. I have 2 types of infection 1 being mersa. I know have 2 undergo 6 weeks of IV antibotics and the metal plate in my arm had 2 also be removed, so I may be in a third case soon. These antibotics are harsh so please dont be upset if it takes some time for me 2 get back 2 you. I am also getting very weak and well my left arm is getting the brunt of that bad, as for those of you I work with looks like at least another six weeks, at least before I will be returning. Sorry not much at this point but its late and home health care is coming early in the morning to teach me hoe to self andminister these antibiotics (which take no less that 2 and a half hours through IV to take at a time). Thanks again to all of you who have been keeping in touch, and continuing to be concerned and keeping me in your prayers. You dont know how much it means to me and my family. Dari

Well as some of you now already I was to get my cast off on 12/21 and go back to work on 12/24. If all went as planned that is. Well x-rays showed that the new cast did little to help the healing process and that the only other course of action is surgery. What they are needing to do now is attach a metal (most likely titanium) plate to the bone in order for it to heal properly. This will most likely stay in for the rest of my life and is the best chance for me to heal. But first my road rash has to heal so there is no risk of infection. So now I am in a splint and not a cast. How do I feel about all this? Relieved actually. I feel that this is the only solution that will finally put an end to this crappy saga. I want my life back to where it was so bad, and I believe it will be that way once the surgery is performed and I should be back to work 2 week later. So just one more month and I am living my normal life again, I can handle that. My only problem now is, do I want the nick name Iron Man or Bionic Man? I am leaning more toward Bionic Man, What you think?

Well folks nothing with me is easy I guess. I went to the doctor the other day and I am NOT healing as I should be, so new cast was put on, tighter as all get out this time. My return to work date pushed back another 9 days and well the cast is making the road rash/crush injury hurt and burn. Oh and yes I will be needing physical therapy once the bone is healed because apparently when a car drags your arm across the ground and pins said arm underneath it for about 30 minutes it tend to damage the muscles, ligaments, tendons, and nerves. Good news is my skin is coming off nicely and nice new skin growing underneath, plus I will prolly be reminded of this glorious event with a huge ugly scar. I know, I know it could be worse...I could be dead, I could have lost the arm, or a worse paralyzed vegetable. So dont get me wrong I do look at the bright side. Lets go to the mental aspect of this incident. Thankfully the nightmares have stopped, however the flashbacks linger like that fruitcake you get every christmas but you dont want to throw away because its reaaly inedible but there are starving children around the world. Yes everynight I close my eyes and i replay the accident for hours...that is if I am brave enough. Most nights I just stay up until 4 am or so until I just cant stay awake any longer. I did seek help, was given a anti-depressant/sleep agent. Was great for first 2 nights; but here I am night 3 and its nearly 4 and I am wide ass awake. I must have really fucked up somewhere b/c my karma sucks atm. I do have a new car....oh i love this car. 2007 Nissan Versa. Has just about everything but a toilet. 6 disc changer, lays mp3, can hook a mp3 unit into it. Side curtain airbags make me feel really safe and breathe easier. Great gas milage, which not only helps with the oil tycoon we have in office but also the environment. Was used but less than 2K miles so brand new really at used car pricen saved about 4-5K in price and it looks like the pimping car I deserve. It is so awesome I could live in it. Its silver with a blueish hue. Will have to take pictures and put them up soon.

As some of you know, and those of you who dont yety I am sorry it has been hectic, I was in a very bad car accident on 10/31/2007. I am very lucky to be alive and now that I have had time to mentally deal with it I posted an album in my photos if interested. I posted them as a reminder how fragile we are and how precious life can be and how quickly it can be taken away. I was very lucky...all I suffered was road rash and a broken arm. What could have happened was there would now be a cross with my name on it on the scene of the accident. At one point while I was waiting to be rescued I seriously thought I would not see any of you ever again, thankfully I can say I can. Thank you all who have kept in touch and checking up on me, I appreciate it, you dont know how much it means to me.