If there was someone you cared so much about but you knew you can never have them what would be the best course of action. I spend alot of my time regretting my past. Wishing I had made on choice at a time in my life when I didn't. Every day my mind is filled with the two most haunting words "What If". Maybe a life could have been changed, another destroyed. I do what i do. I soldier on mainly keeping alot of these emotions locked up. Someone who shares feelings like that seems to only leave themselves open for pain. Losing one love to Death. Another to Distance. Two to me putting my word on the line with the military. And another to my being to incompetent to take a chance. So im going to keep going from day to day like i have. Unfortunatly making myself more and more scarce from those ,who atleast in my mind, i belive do or may love me. Dont be me. Dont live in regret.
