1031347's blog: "Life is a Bag of Skittles"

I stole Brandons' Girlfriend application and figured i'd hae fun, answer the quetsions and see if people consider me to be a good plausible girlfriend..hrm.... Girlfriend Application. About You Name: Amanda Jean aka Mandy Age: 19 Height: 5'7 Hair color: brown'red Eye color: blue, with green in them Favorite color: orange and green Favorite food: italian Whats your AIM or MSN screen name: texasrain0606 (all 3 ) Tattoos?: none, but someday Piercings?: none, not sure if i want one Drink?: occasionally, im still a cheap date lol Smoke?: YUCK. hell NO. Any Other drugs?: no way Would you care if i did drugs?: eh, yea. Would you care if i drank?: no AA meetings, plz. Are you a virgin?: nope Do you have sex?: ...i'm being good. (if so) How Often?: ...being good. Is sex all your looking for?: no way. Do you have any STD's?: no Would you kiss me anytime?: mmmm i like kissees Anywhere?: anywhere Do you like to cuddle?: thats a must How much?: a lot. i lovvee cuddling Have you ever been cheated on?: no Would you cheat on me?:i've never cheated, so no Have you ever cheated on someone?: no no no List your top 3 bands: oh boy. lol. 1.: Blue October 2.: Dashboard Confessional 3.: ...that band i love, and just flitted out of my head.... ARG. Ah! Dextar Freebish Top 3 movies 1.: 300 (a-ma-zing) 2.: uh...all movies? 3.: hm... i love little kid movies a lot Do you like to party?: sometimes What if i wanted to stay home and watch a movie with you?: oh goodie! popcorn! What if i wanted to kiss you in the rain?: i love the rain...absolutely love it...that would be heaven Are you spontaneous?: depends, if i have responsibilities ill ususally be good, but if not... Willing to try new things?: oh yeah Like your picture taken?: sometimes Do you drive?: yes Go to school?: yes IMPORTANT QUESTIONS! Would you hold my hand as we walk through the mall?: mmmhmm Would you push me up against a wall and kiss me?: and a car...and the kitchen...and....im prone to d this anywhere actually. What about random kisses?: the best kind Would you sleep over at my house and hold me all night?: I hate sleeping alone, so i'd jump at the chance. Will you only call me sexy if you mean it?: of course Would you ever llie to me?: this is where you have to be honest. I think I would, but I would choose my lie very carefully. Meaning, I would never, ever lie to to you about where I am going --- unless I'm planning your surprise birthday party and need you to think im with Veronica when I'm really at the beach planning it. And I would probably say "no, you look fine", when we both know you look horribly sick with the flu. The good lies, not the bad ones. there is a difference. A Few Random Questions What do you think of: Ferrets?: had one! love em! Little dogs?: own one, love him so much Messy rooms?: yuck. Playing in the rain?: ooo take me! Showers completly clothed?: that would be different... Just hanging out doing nothing?: fun Talking on the phone for hours?: uh huh thats me Talking about completly usless and random things for hours?: sure lol Why did you fill this out?: I wanted to How bad do you wanna go out with me?: ...well, self, i like you a lot, but i prefer men :P What do you think is my best fearure?: my eyes (yes im conceited lol) What do you think is your best feature?: :P Is there anything else you would like me to know?: can you handle the little red Warning button? :P

I never saw myself as an abstinence kind of girl. That word never really belonged in my vocabulary, not necessarily a tainted word, but my far a word I never would label to myself. Now, I feel like it is something I should do. Last week I was sitting in the living room of my sisters apartment as she was playing on the internet. We were on Fubar and discussing the hawt guys that were here age (38) and were messaging me with their drooling comments...and although I do not remember the sexual crack she made, I do remember it struck me. Not in anger necessarily, but more of a revelation. I didn't dwell on the thoughts then, I had a final exam to take, no time. But with the weekend came the thinking, and everyone I knew linked me to one common word : Sex. Not because I was a promiscuous slut, but because they all knew I had a flirtatious sexual attitude, I like to talk about it, joke about it, torture men relentlessly with my feminine charms. Sex and Mandy was spelled the same way. Normally I would not mind, because a part of my personality is very, very sexual. I am not your average female many would say. If you were to compare my sexual appetite to a man who likes to drive fast, well lets just say I would be that tripped out Ferrari with the little red 'Warning' button inside that makes it go really, really fast. Lately though, and when I say lately I mean for the past four years, every man I run into has turned into a sexual-fiend the moment he realizes I enjoy sex, a lot. How terrible is that, for a woman who loves not only sex, but life itself. I enjoy discussing a good book, curling up on the couch for hours to converse, watch a movie, or do nothing but watch the rain fall. I enjoy going out on the town ever so often, dancing, singing loudly to the radio while stuck in traffic, swimming, boating, horseback riding, sunsets, but not beaches. I don't particularly enjoy the beach, at least not the salt-burning-eyes beaches that I have run across. The point is I am tired of being unhappy. I think sex has become my way out, because if I am too busy concentrating on trying to have an orgasm, maybe I can block out what I really want. A warm, male body to kiss me good-morning, someone to call when my day has turned really topsy-turvy, and someone besides my sisters to go to when I really need someone. So forget you, forget the man reading this wondering if I'll change my mind because he's got a nice cock. Screw. You. it is my turn. My turn to call the shots. My turn to tell you no. My turn to get what I want. It is your turn however, to make me want you for more than just some thrusting action. to make me see beyond your beautiful face. to give me something. to make me want more. Good-bye casual sex, Good-bye sex on the first date, Good-be sex to sex before the 1 month anniversary, even. Hell, Good-bye dirty pictures, Good-bye phone sex, Good-bye vibrator, Good-bye everything. Perhaps, I will learn to appreciate sex after a while. What a vicious spiral I find myself standing in. That insatiable crave for sex after losing ones virginity, spinning viciously out of control in an urge to find happiness, and it's like the drugs I never touched, absolutely addicting and an ultimate downfall. Will someone check me into rehab?

I always believe life is a bag of skittles, and each day you get to have a different color. Today is Orange. very relaxed, calm, happy. I worked my butt off yesterday so I could have this day to myself, without any hard work. I need to study for a quiz but that's about it :) YAY