It was just a beautiful lie
Believing in you and I
Especially when we both know
It's well past time to let go.
I know it's only cowardice
That won't let me drop this
But how can I find someone new
After all we have been through?
Beautiful as it has been dreaming,
I'm sick of waking up screaming,
I know you aren't coming back for me,
Though if you would, we could be so happy.
Could we ever make things right,
By rectifying every past slight?
Could I believe in us again,
Or will something always be missing?
I am clouded in doubt
Searching for a way out.
Fight for me, stand by my side
Tell me it wasn't you who lied.
I thought our bond could never be severed
Guess I was wrong, as we can't be together.
Even if you love me, you chose another,
And I won't compete with your baby's mother.
It makes me want to hide and cry
I know how hard we once tried
But I think you gave up on me
Set me free, when you could not be.
We both made promises and sacrificed
Far too much to endure in this life.
And in the end, what was it for?
To end up wanting you more?
I may never have the answers I desire,
Especially if you are just a liar.
But how can I believe that to be true
When I know that I will always love you?
Maybe I just want to believe
Someone I love could never deceive
That you tried as hard as I
Though in the end, it's all a lie.
I want so bad to believe in you
To believe what we had was true
But how can I believe
When you had to up and leave?
My tears will dry eventually
And what you meant to me
Will one day just fade away
So I can find peace some day.
Let me make one thing clear,
I never cheated to be with you, dear.
That was your choice completely
It's no wonder that she hates me.
Why couldn't you be just my friend?
Why did all the innocence have to end?
I was prepared to let you live your life
Me, your friend, and her, your wife.
You never should have mentioned her infidelities
And given hope to the thought of you and me.
You told me everything, hoping I would run?
Told me of her betrayal to you and your son.
You promised you would never tell me lies
And what we had took us both by surprise.
I believed in you, every word you said,
But were you just toying with my head?
I know that things are complicated for you
But are you even trying to work things through?
Or have you left me, as I once did you,
Taking away everything I thought I knew.
Eight years is a long time to grieve
For someone who may not have loved me
Then you came back and we had a chance
To continue our (even now) unfinished dance.
I know how things looks to people not you and I
And many of my friends wish for your demise.
But I believe things different from anyone's theory
And debating with them, just makes me weary.
The simple fact is I may still love you
Only you and I know if it's true.
We need one more day together
To figure out if this is forever.
Circumstance has taken you from me
It's so much harder than you may believe
To go on each day wondering if you're safe
And if you are ever coming back to this place.
