Why did you have to leave?
The misery she put us through.
It wasn’t fair to him or me.
I was left to raise a family and I was just a kid.
She died shortly after you and then again 12 years later for good.
I think you’d be proud of him.
He’s grown up now and looks a lot like you.
I can’t say the same for me.
I’ve went through life trying to catch up on all the years I missed.
Honestly I wasted nothing but time and I realize that now.
I was scared to open up, let my guard down, and feel for anything or one.
I think I’m past that now though.
Some how I found someone, did you have something to do with this?
She’s been on my mind and in my heart for sometime.
It’s taken awhile to let her know though.
And like you taught me, I always remind her of how much I care and how I feel.
One thing you never explained, how much is too much?
I feel that there can’t be enough, but I don’t want to push her away.
This is the one lesson I should have of learned by now.
Unless I’m too much like you and the stories I’ve heard which can’t be bad because you only had one also.
I know that this is the one I’m meant to be with, I’m just asking that you let me be around longer because I’ll never be able to tell her all that I want.
If I have to exit early though, I hope that my one isn’t like yours was and can cherish the time we had instead of being so bitter for the times we didn’t.
I know that you cared for him and me though and you always have watched out.
You taught us the lessons we needed to grow from a far away place.
For that we are both better men.
I just need you to know that I did my best to keep your name clean.
It was never the same though because I wasn’t you and she reminded me of that.
