I just want to sit here with my headphones on and listen to music. I just want to let the music drown out everything in my life I really dont want to think about. I want to have something in my life that can bring some joy to me. At this moment there isnt much to be happy about. The man I thought I might spend my life with has been trippin about shit that I really just dont get. He is making mountains out of mole hills and uses it to do whatever he wants. Than blames it on me saying I cause him to be the way he is. What the hell is that shit. To me a excuse. I cant make grown men mess up there relationship, take responsiblity for your actions. Maybe I wouldn't read things you wrote if you weren't always writing to other women the way you have. Oh well let me turn up some LL, he never does me wrong, lol. He puts a smile on my face without even tring. yum.lol. Hey lover, mmmmm, thats the shit.
