I believe I am no longer destined to be in this world. I cant deal with all the crap anymore. I have been here before but this time there is no one here to stop me. I am bound for a new adventure. The Ultimate adventure. I was in pain in this world, but where I am going I will no longer be in pain. Everyone wil be better off without me around causing pain and trouble. To all of my friends, I cherished your friendship more than any of you will ever know. If I made your lives hell at one point or another I am sorry. To my family, I am sorry but you knew this was coming. To my husband, I love you more than life itself which is why i have decided to embark on this journey. I can no longer watch myself hurt you anymore. I realize that my death will hurt you, but grief soon fades. Do not mourn for me. Just remember who I was before all the medications and mental illness. I was happy once and will be again. To my children, I loved you with all my heart and soul. I am not taking my life because of anything you did. I just didnt want to put you through the hell anymore. I think this is the best thing. I think you will both have better lives without me. Your futures are bright and no matter what you want to do in life, do it. Dont let anyone hold you back, like I had done so much in life. Be good boys.
I love you all. Please Understand. I am just tired of the hurt. I tried to tell some of you but nobody would listen. Not that it would have mattered I guess.
Anyway, off to my adventure.
Take Care,
I will be watching from above.
