hatchetgurl4life's blog: "Kristen's Thoughts "

When i met you, my life changed 
Don't know when this feeling came 
I got out of bed one morning 
Shocked about this feeling 

It's not right to love you, I know 
But i can't force myself to forget you 
I give color to my life 
Through i know the time is not right 

I told myself to stay away from you 
But i can't teach my heart not to love you 
This feeling i had for you keeps growing 
A reason for me to be afraid of what this could bring 

My  mind always telling me to let you go 
But my heart is always saying i love you 
This heart  really rules my mind 
And that is why i can't stop this feeling inside 

Asking god to help me  to decide 
Which one will i follow heart or mind?
God  has purpose to what i feel 
For he only knows  about what is real 

One thing in common between  my heart and mind 
Is that they've  both saying what is right
 My mind is right and so is with my heart 
But one thing is for sure, You are apart of my life 

From the moment i saw you, i was amazed

you set my heart ablaze

from the first kiss you letft me in a daze

Moments like that should last forever and even

when we aren't together

You hold my hand and set me free, you show

me what love  is supposed to be

you tell me i'm gorgeous

you tell me i'm smart

you tell me when your eyes

you'll never break my heart

The  heart i thought that was broken

has now been repaired from those few

moments that we've shared

lets not rush it, lets take it slow

 because this is how love can grow  

My heart aches when i talk to you

my heart aches when i don't hear from you

my heart aches when i long for you

I don't know why

you've taken over my thoughts

I can't explain

you're still a stranger

far away

i want you close by

I miss your embrace

holding you close

my heart aches

I miss you

I search in vain

can not find the root

where it is that is

transformation has come from

why has it come about, what does it feed on

Tell me what it is that torments

what pain gestates in you, very soul

for you to be vexed and lash out

Once we were close, like two sides of a coin

so close where words had no ground

today i am lukcy if you still call me friend

the cold reaching my very bones

The silence speaks volumes

of a departing union

but gives  me no reason for relief

but a slab of ice between us that needs shattering

surely a word or two to

each other would help, help

us both over come whatever

there neeeds to be addressed

I surely wish that you would

At least redress the issue

for which i am truly at a loss

wanting only repartion for a friendship

how sadly lost

Laying underneath the stars,
on a warm silent night 
your arms are wrapped around me,
and everything feel right 

You kiss me sweet and softly,
i feel your warm gentle touch,
you help me feel protected 
under  the sweet night sky rush 

My world before me is perfect 
there's nowhere eles i want to be 
except laying underneath the stars 
Hand in Hand you  and me 

Just when everything is perfect 
and you seem so delicately sweet 
a rush of wind comes past me 
as i 'm swept beneath my feet 

Nothing could be more right 
there's nowhere eles i want to be 
lets take a walk my lonely love 
Hand in hand you and me 

Baby in my dreams you were my only desire

In my life until now you have been my one inpire

In my heart i hold this love so open and strong

I have never throught of anyone eles all year long

When you are far no where near out of touch

At night i've never dreamed of anyone this much

When you're close and i feel your gentle kiss

And when you leave it's all of you that i miss

In your heart and soul i will forever confide

Baby in our time together we could never divide

Its your everything  that makes my life complete

Its everything we share that makes me heart beat

for you i'd do anything, never make you wait

Whatever the time, Place, and even the date

Baby your name, is engraved on my heart

My heart belongs for you each time you depart

And honey i will never heart you or try to break

Baby i'll never disown you or cause you to ache

Your my everything  that will forever remain

Our love story woudl be so easy to explain

Within a lonely heart there dwells

A soul of untold dreams

Within a heart of love there dwells

A dreamer, so it seems

So what, per chance, resides

Among the dreams left there to die?

A heart long since forgotten

In the wake of days gone by

And what, pray tell, lives in a heart

That never dreams at all ?

A bitter, Lonely soul it seems

That hides behind a wall

And as the wall stands firm

And lets no other heart come near

It feels not love and laugher

From the ones it should hold dear

In time the wall will crumble

Giving way to love’s pure light

Then one again the heart will dream

And fly to greater heights

You make me happy

You make me sad

You make me angry

You make me mad

You made me feel again

You started my whole world again

like it was your own book to read

You stole my heart

you have my soul

you stood in front of me

like it was your turn to bowl

my life had started when you came in

you knew how to unlock me

like you knew my pin

and now your love is all i need

to keep me alive happy and free

It wasn't love at first sight,

It came to me late at night,

When my soul was filled with lifes plight,

That was when i saw your light

I knew you were who i'd been searching for

The reason I had to stepped from the door

You were my personal goddess to the core

You were what i wanted and needed and more

I wrote of my love for you,

And i went insane  before it was though

But when the time was past due

I confused it all in a pew

You told me how wonderful it was

That my love was sent from above

More beautiful then a soaring dove,

And it fit you as a glove

But you didn't feel that way

And you didn't talk to me the next day

And in you decision i had no say

I merely stood lonly  at the bay

I'm down on my kness,

Begging you to hear my plea,

Hoping that you will see

What you are doing to me

i'd  be your slave, If you so desired,

For you are the one i've always admired

Yet you threw me to the fire,

and my situation is dire,

I love you you are my all,

But i still walk alone in life halls

While your shadow is cast over me tall,

And i hear my hearts' call,

So, my own goddes, hear my prayer

It may not sound  fair

But you are my one and only care,

and this pain i can no longer bare

So come to me at night

As did your light

To end my horrible plight

I swear to you , it will vbe a wonderful sight

I love you more then all the stars in the sky

I love you more as each moment passes us by

I love you more with every breath i take

I love you more then each promise we make

I need you like a flower needs the rain

I need you for you wash away my pain

I need you more each day

I need you for you are so wonderful, in ever single way

I miss you more then ever now

I miss you because i really need you show how

I miss you and your touch

I miss you for to me, You mean so much

I want you to cares my lips the way you always do

I want you to look into my eyes and see my love for you

I want you to hold me close to your heart

I want you to know i love you, need you, miss you, want you

And i have for every single  moment, Right from the start