hatchetgurl4life's blog: "Kristen's Thoughts "

I love you

but you broke my heart 

i should have known 

that was your goal from the start 

you told me you loved me 

and you seemed upset 

when i didn't say it back 

and that's my biggest regret 

You talked of the future 

and put it in my head 

that you wanted me for longer 

but you dropped me instead 

I would do anything for you 

but you couldn't even wait 

I wanted you in my life 

i knew this on our first date 

I love you still 

But doesn't matter 

for the heart i give u 

you have shattered 

So i am left broken 

and picking up the pieces 

while you are smiling 

and your care decreases 

You knew i was fragile 

Even though i acted tough 

that you could see past my bluff 

I still love you 

I don't think i will ever stop

Just know if you need me 

Your heart i will never drop

Alone in my head 

I'm feeling so low

you won't understand 

no one can know 

my eyes are so tired 

i can't sleep at night 

your face haunts my dreams 

when i turn out the light 

It happend so suddenly 

It happend  so fast 

i knew all at once 

that none of this would last 

was i just a game 

was this all just for fun 

did my feelings matter 

to anyone 

this didn't mean anything 

that's what you said 

as i was so shamefully 

getting up from your bed 

i held my head high

as i walked by your side 

tears welling up 

i was dying inside 

weekes have passed 

keeping secrets, telling lies 

i don't have the strength 

to look eirther of them in the eyes 

my heart has been broken 

not once , but twice 

once by my best friend 

oncey by the love of my life 

deep down inside 

i knew its my fault 

so  i'm just going to lock it 

away in my vault 

Sometimes i still think about you

when  i'm lying in bed 

Still all alone 

inside of my head 

Love can't be described
It's has no shape, it has no form
Love is not an abject
Love dose not conform 

Love enters our lives 
That sometimes flickers but never dies 
Love may be invisible 
Althrough its right before your eyes 

Love  can leave you empty 
Love can make you whole 
Love can make you or break you 
Love is in your soul 

Love is in your heart 
Love is in your mind 
Love doesn't discriminate 
Love is always blind 

Love is universal 
It encompasses the globe 
No matter where you are 
Love has a language all its own 

Love is all around  you 
There's plenty of love to spare 
You can not see it or touch it 
But love is everywhere 

Love's the greatest  power 
And yet it is so small 
Love's a gift from god 
To be shared amongst us all

Every moment we spend together 
has touched our lives, our soul forever 
the things that we shared and learned 
is permanent growth that we've earned 

The person that i have grown into today 
did not get there by chance, no way 
i am who i am partly because of you 
and you are you because of me, too

The change i see 
and what i have learned about me 
are a response to how we affected our lives 
and what we discover in each other eyes 

Its uncertain if we have to part or one day live together 
either way, we have touch our lives forever!
no matter what the future will show 
no matter what we are told 

We are connected on such deep levels 
that no one can remove that, not even the devil 
our feelings might be different a year from now 
but you are a part of me forever some how 

A part of me will always be you 
and a part of you will always be me 
no matter what happens, that much is certain 
our souls are one until life closes the curtain 

I will love you forever 
for worse or for better 

You are tattooed in my heart 
and nothing can tear our souls apart 

I will never forget you 
for my  love is honest and true 

Before you became a friend of mine 

We knew each other for quite sometime 

I hate to say we wasted a year and a half 

I'm glad we can now look back and laugh 

It's funny how things turned out 

I wish i could say i never had a doubt 

Truth is, I'm proud to say 

you and i have come a long, long way 

You touch the lives of people you know 

you walk around with a humble glow 

you've been a best friend to me 

one that will last an eternity 

I know my secrets you will keep 

on your shoulder, i can weep

you always listen and never judge me,

Always understand so objectively 

You light up a room when you walk in 

I'm so fortunate that you're my friend

you are the epitome of a best friend 

i wish i had know that way back then 

Words can't convey what you mean 

a better friend i have yet seen 

you confide in me, and i in you 

you are a friend  who's completely true 

I never thought we'd be friends like this 

a lifetime of this we almost missed 

i'm blessed things have turned out this way 

i thank god for you everyday 

I'm thankful it was not too late 

My friendship with you was well worth  the wait 

I love you for all that you are 

There's no better friend by far 

You mean the world to me 

nothing will ever come between us 

you will always be in my heart 

your spot will never be taken 

by anyone else ever 

i will love yoiu forever 

no matter how much we fight 

we'll be okay 

you mean the world to me 

and always will forever 

you mean the world to me 

unlike anybody i call my friend 

the  feeling i have 

is quite different 

you mean the world to me 

and always will 

for no one else 

makes me feel this way 

You broke my heart in two

And took me like a bet

With all you you put me through

I have so many regrets

To lose you was worth it

although i wasn't sure

it seemed to make me happy

but still so insecure

We always said forver

We would take it to the end

Never give it up

But this time my heart couldn't mend

It cut so deep into me

I guess it hurt you too

but when you did it, then you lied

i had to say , we're through

I give you all i had

I tired to make it last

buy now  all we have

are memories  from the past

So look me in the eye

and tell me what you see

a girl so broken inside

who's been through misery

and now i'm moving on

with the pain that kills inside

but i'm startig to forget

by reminding myself how you lied

I have someone new

someone to treat me right

to talk to lovely

and to hold me all night

he's there for me when i need him

to give me love and support

to hold me close and whip away

all my signs of hurt

To kiss me softly every night

and let me know he's there

to call just because

just to tell me that he cares

now here i go again

fallen so hard, so deep

but this time it's different

this one i want to keep

Even though we are miles apart 

you are never far from my heart

I loved you then

i love you now

It's always when and

never how

Take me back to yesterday

all the wonderful things you had to say

I loved you then

i love you now

Its always when

and never ho

I see your eyes

I feel you near

all through your not

really here

I want to hold your hand and walk a mile

Dont want to miss you even awhile

My life is so beautiful

Dear its you, my life

Hug me for my worries to die

My tears to dry

And my loneliness to fly

It hurts me to know

how i sometimes can be little selfish

When it comes to you

I'm getting sentimental over you

For goodness sake explain  to me why all these

I miss you every moment of the day

I keep me awake just listen to you

I keep me empty just for you to fill

I keep me alive just to see you

My mornings miss you

my evenings seek  you 

Where were  you all these years

Why weren't you there to dry my tears

Fear of future is worse than pain  of past

Still i bother the least cause you are there

Even seconds are too long to miss you

I want to hold you hands and walk a mile

Don't  want to miss you even awhile

My heart is so tender
So fragile so carrying
If i trust it with you
Would that be so daring?

My heart needs someone
Who will treat it right
Let emotions take their course
And not put up a fight

It has been broken
so many times in the past
now what it needs
is someone to heal it and fast

Could you be as gentle
as it needs you to be
i think you could
but i'll just wait and see

Just promise that you won't hurt it
or break it once more
and i'll promise to care for you
like no one ever has before

I have so much to offer
to that one person i can trust
but first you have to make that promise
and that is a must