DJ Hard2Catch's blog: "Just Thoughts"

When i lost aubri it changed me forever.Sometiemes i still have horrible hightmares and other i want to believe she is still here just out of my sight.i became very defensive and gaurded after she was gone.i would keep people at arms length and when they get to close i would push them away and hurt them.tho this day i dotn understand why i did t just know it hurt alot of people.There are a couple that i  cannot say im sorry to .i still miss them 

to those reading this and you know who you are i am sorry. i never meant for it to happen.i have learned alot from some people about what i want to be these people no matter what i have done remain close to my herat i miss them dearly even tho they dont know it.

So when times get tough and your not right please take the time to not over think things.Not everyone is out to get you even if it truly feels like it.Be careful what you say to them cause chances are they have no idea whats going on in your head or heart.Not thinking about this has cost me alot of good people in my life and i miss them.

Don't Quit

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up, though the pace seems slow -
You might succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup.
And he learned too late, when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out -
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt -
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

- Unknown -

The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the Serenity
to accept the things
I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And Wisdom to know the difference.

Take These Thoughts With You 
On Your Journey To Your Dreams

Don't ever forget that you are unique. Be your best self and not an imitation of someone else.

Find your strength and use them in a positive way. Don't listen to those who ridicule the choices you make.

Travel the road that you have chosen and don't look back with regret. You have to take chances to make your dreams happen.

Remember that there is plenty of time to travel another road - and still another - in your journey through life.

Take the time to find the route that is right for you. You will learn something valuable from every trip you take, so don't be afraid to make mistakes.

Tell yourself that you're okay just the way you are. Make friends who respect your true self.

Take the time to be alone, too, so you can know just how terrific your own company can be.

Remember that being alone doesn't always mean being lonely; it can be a beautiful experience of finding your creativity, your heartfelt feelings, and the calm and quiet peace deep inside you.

Don't ever forget that you are special and you have within you the ability to make your dreams come true.

~ Jacqueline Schiff ~ 

A Creed To Live By

Don't undermine your worth by comparing
yourself with others.
It is because we are different that each of us is special.
Don't set your goals by what other people
deem important.

Only you know what is best for you.
Don't take for granted the things closest to your heart.
Cling to them as you would your life, for without them
life is meaningless.

Don't let your life slip through your fingers
by living in the past or for the future.
By living your life one day at a time,
you live all the days of your life.

Don't give up when you still have something to give.
Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.
Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect.
It is this fragile thread that binds us to each other.
Don't be afraid to encounter risks.

It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.
Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's impossible to find.
The quickest way to receive love is to give love.
The fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly;
and the best way to keep love is to give it wings.
Don't dismiss your dreams.

To be without dreams is to be without hope;
to be without hope is to be without purpose.
Don't run through life so fast that you forget
not only where you've been, but also where you're going.
Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored
each step of the way.

~ Nancye Sims ~ 

In the past couple of months ive learned that people you thought would always be there never will be and the people you think that would rather not be there will be.ive learned that if you try to avoid risks everything becomes a risk and your life becomes guarded.I have learned that even if only for a couple of seconds you can love a person for who they are and even be able to turn thier lives around or at least comfort them. my status" How does a person jump into life and go unchanged? the answer is they dont.We as people tend to see the others side and try to help and in tiny and some huge ways change who we are as people.

One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart. Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said "Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine." The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing. The people stared - how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought? The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed. "You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears." "Yes," said the old man, "Yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared. Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges -- giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?" The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his. They embraced and walked away side by side.

 Ive been sitting here all day wondering why people just cant let things go.I feel like my life is falling part.I found someone that i love with all my heart and someone apparently from here doesnt like that.Now because of thier actions i feel invaded and i feel a complete lose of hope.Ive been married twice and have lost everything.Aparently thats not enough so now who ever wants to make more hurt thinks they should here.No matter what ive done in the past it is the past.I cant change it and neither can anyone else.Ive had a new look on life and i love what i see.Now someone want to take it away.Let my lessons help teach you.Ill never give up on being happy no matter what anyone does.I do care about people sometimes more than i should.Thats my bad so i guess ill make it harder for people to get close.Thank you for reading this and i hope your days are wonderful and filled with joy and for those who disagree remember you will be in these shoes sometime.

if you had one with that would come true before you time on earth is gone.what would it be? love? money? peice on earth? what?

my wish would be to spend whatever time i have here with people who i careabout and love . you cant have itall so why not have what matters the most.

thought i would give this a try to see what kind of ladies i could find

some just are stuck on them selves others are careless and so on

ive meet a couple that are really nice but are taken . so where did they all go?