Hi, it's me once again. Where do I start. 5 years ago I met this most amazing person. She and I quickly became the best of friends. I had begun to love her as the friendship grew. Many others from here made all these promises to her and not one fulfilled any promise made. As our relationship grew, I said to her, you know what? I am coming to visit you. I never expected anything, I was coming to visit my best friend. Well that visit solidified a love which I never once looked back. During our relationship we have had many ups and downs. We always attempted to communicate and resolve anything. Now after 2 years of placing myself through stress, I am now a massage therapist. Getting back to our relationship, Jenna and I have gone on vacation together, we have fun when we are together in person. Yet distance hasn't kept me from being devoted to this woman. There is nothing I would not do for her. Now I want to permanantly be in her life. I am not understanding how someone's feelings after 5 years could change. Yes I can be jealous at times, BUT i know I hold a piece of her heart. To anyone who reads this, I would take any advice you wish to give me. Am i wasting my time to hold onto something I hold so dearly?