I look in the mirror.
Scared of what I will see.
The change happens so quickly.
I don't mean to change but i do.
The hideous crack in the former wonderful me. The jealousy comes out.
It rears it's ugly head.
Why do i fall victim?
Why can't I fight?
I know I am strong.
You have told me so,
yet I am still not convinced.
I have something to hide.
I try running, fast and fearless.
Headlong into disaster.
The monster consumes me.
Chews the real me up and spits me out.
Now I am an empty soul.
Someone consumed with fear.
Someone who is irrational and jealous of all. Why can't this monster leave me alone?
I want to be me!
I want to be the wonderful person once more.
I fight a valiant fight.
Somedays I win but somedays I lose.
I am on the road to discovering where the monster left me.
I need to find me.
The woman I was and the woman I almost am.
That combination can fight the monster and win.
