I hold my head up high.
Facing the laughing people.
I try to hold the tears back,
but they roll down my cheeks anyway.
They all knew what was happening.
They all knew what a fool i was making of myself.
But did anyone care?
The answer to that question is no.
For now my heart is breaking,
shattering into tiny little pieces.
I thought I ment something to you.
I thought I was more than just a cheap thrill. I was wrong, about you,
about so many things in my life.
I have nothing left.
No illusions to see.
Not even my pride, my one saving grace.
Nothing you took it all from me
when you played me for a fool.
I hope you laughed and had a good time.
Now i am crying and hurting.
You did a good job.
I once told you that you would make a great player.
I never wanted to find out for myself,
but i was right.
The one time i wish that i had been wrong.
I believed every word you said.
I wanted to believe.
I forced myself to believe.
He cares to much for me I told myself.
Now those words are just evil laughter echoing in my brain.
They are there to torture me with the truth. They are there to make me hurt and bleed.
I will survive this though,
I have went through worse.
Oh the scars i will have to prove this experience.
They tattoo my body and mind,
just like your touch.
I remember it and still crave it.
But it would be insane for me to give in
when I know the pain that lies ahead of me.
I gave you my heart and you gave it back.
I don't want it back, I just want you
