LIZ's blog: "Jaded"

i get to thinking about people and their thoughts on friendship... usually i try to make the best effot in order to befriend someone... well not usually i actually put in 150 % because if you want to get to know a person in this fucked up internet world which is far more stressful than everyday life for some people apperently... but i know those people that i tried with and they are throwing or have already thrown mine friendship away .. for either.. they found someone more and exciting... or ... something went wrong... but im sorry for whatever ... guess you people think to much... bubi ^_^ Liz

By now i should have been somwhere or gone to school, or fixed my hair back down tell it to someone else who gives a shit and needs your help cause i found what i needed and i don't need you to tell me how you feel and if i fall you are not the one that has to cope and deal all my problems are for me my god look at his tattoos and those earrings he could never get a good job go home and beat your kids so they don't turn out as bad as me i don't need your eyes to see i will be what i will be stop coming around cause you bother me stupid mutherfucker pull your head out your ass and see what don't you get, was i stuttering i don't need to take your shit get away from me

Is it over yet, in my head? I know nothing of your kind, and I won't reveal your evil mind. Is it over yet? I can't win. So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left. I know that I can find the fire in your eyes. I'm going all the way, get away, please. ******* You take the breath right out of me. You left a hole where my heart should be. You got to fight just to make it through, 'cause I will be the death of you. ******* This will be all over soon. Pour salt into the open wound. Is it over yet? Let me in. So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left. I know that I can find the fire in your eyes. I'm going all the way, get away, please. ******** You take the breath right out of me. You left a hole where my heart should be. You got to fight just to make it through, 'cause I will be the death of you. ******** I'm waiting, I'm praying, realize, start hiding. ******** You take the breath right out of me. You left a hole where my heart should be. You got to fight just to make it through, 'cause I will be the death of you. ******** ♠Breaking Benjamin♠ beautiful song... describes alot of people... maybe me.. but i never tell my secrets ^_^

Ages past now and time without meaning Eternity and two thousand years have not mellowed the feeling Life’s greatest mystery carved in stone as strong Blessing bestowed upon the world before so long In all this earthly and celestial meld Cult of one thing from the beginning still held Hate’s as proud, this foul creature Plagued this Saint, the mainest feature Great as such still has come to reap Meant for peace our days to keep Forever the sight of doom, the dream of breath Truth now is – our love is Death Sleeping ground, graves’ reigning beauty Worlds extinguished – life’s ending duty Dread it was and love’s as hate Upon these days of crying fate Killer vicious, missing just Yearning though to return to the dust Jury decided guilty – comes the most cruel None as horridly evil as this last rule Quite the good received an Earth Only evolution lacked a mirth Screaming loud with all our wrath Most precious gift though is the Poetry of Death

Precious burdon I capture deep inside What would my life be without pain in me? I rely on what you need, devour what you feed, Cause what I try to breed is me in you. There's no one else to blame, this is my favourite pain. And all I want to gain is myself in you Wrath is glowing now through my sunken eyes Pain is growing I'm jaded from your lies I don't know why but it's the best way to die You are the trigger and my deepest desire I'm losing you, but you will always be mine Promise me now that you will enter my mind, ...enter my mind...

Am I too corrosive Am I just too weak Am I too contagious Am I just a freak I wish that I could hold you I wish that I could hate you I wish that I could hold you one more time, Just one more time Am I what you made me Am I what you'll reap Am I all you dreamed of or am I just a creep I still see you in my mind I wish that I could have more time I know that it will be just fine All is well now, no need to cry...

If you just walked away what could I really say? Wouldn't matter anyway. Would it change how you feel? I'm the mess you choose the profit you can not close, never let you I suppose because the rooms never here. But everything changes if I could take back the years if you could learn to forgive me then I could learn to feel, Sometimes the things I say bothered some ?? so coming to the games we play to make sure that its real. When it's just me and you. Who knows what we could do. If we can just make it through and take this blood off of me. Stay here together and we could conquer the world if we could say that forever is more than just a word. If you walked away what I could really say? Wouldn't matter anyway. It wouldn't change how you feel.

This is my time of the year This is all so clear This is my snow covered home This is me alone And I Just wish that I didn't feel Like there was Something I missed Take back all The things I said To make you Feel like that Take back all the Things I said to you And I give it all away Just to have somewhere To go to Give it all away To have someone To come home to These are my snow covered dreams This is me pretending This is all I need

Never again will I be dishonoured And never again will I be reminded of living within the world of the jaded They cue inspiration It's my obligation To never again, allow this to happen Where do I begin? The choices are endless Denying the sin My art, my redemption I carry the torch of my fathers before me The thing I treasure the most in life cannot be taken away There will never be a reason why I will surrender to your advice To change myself, I'd rather die No, they will not understand I will make the greatest sacrifice You can't predict where the outcome lies You'll never take me alive I'm alive Change, again, cannot be considered I rage again, dispelling my anger Where do I begin? The choices are endless My art, my redemption, my only salvation I carry the gift that I have been blessed with My soul is adrift the oceans of madness Repairing the rift that you have created i am not alone, brothers give me your arms now I'm no slave Are you feeling brave? Or have you gone out of your mind? No more games It won't feel the same If I hold my anger inside There's no meaning My soul is bleeding I've had enough of your kind One suggestion Use your discretion Before you label me blind

My heart fails to understand how much pain a man can cause, how many children are left in the dark and how much agony a war can cause. My heart fails to understand why we're still sitting watching the news, throwing away our food not caring about the ones we should. Slightly dead inside, Slightly caring, but not too much, Slightly feeling bad, but not enough. My heart fails to understand how much love is in the air, but no one cares to catch it. My heart fails to understand why we're still doing nothing for our only home, but we still complain everyday. My heart fails to understand... understand why my heart is failing, why we are so un-loving in such a "caring" world.