themind13's blog: "It's a sickness... I know."

I need a break already. The sand from that day at the beach with her, finally washed out, ten yaers later. I have no personal effects of hers,and yet she still haunts me. Like a sour mistake from my past, she clouds my mind. I loved her, and fought it. I had her love, and destroyed it. I had all of her, and I pretened it was not enough. Now I have no trace of her but my memory, and I feel incomplete with out her.

I have been through all kinds of shit lately and I have no one to blame but myself really. I am in this life and not just a spectator, so why can't I act like it. Well, maybe I can draw the curtains back and find a reason out there, instead of in here.