themind13's blog: "Confessions and Poems from the Darkside of Nothing"

Continue to sleep ask no questions why take no look inside shed blood but pay no mind it's only yesterday watch skies as they burn lay down when it's your turn live life with no concern it's only yesterday kiss life the kiss of death take mind of your last breath fight til there's nothing left surviving yesterday

there's nothing that I care for and even less to say You throw out words of love that just get in my way to say that you don't tell the truth is only half the tale To say that you exagerate and in all your words you've failed You leave all swinging on a noose your own neck sinched in tight You left the sceen of our dead love your own blood on the knife.

I stand here crying you in my arms wind whispering your not unharmed the cut is deep your tears they flow you start to shake I have no control your drifting now I miss you still I scream for you I have no will What love is lost what empty heart no one held tight I now depart

Your emptiness holds me dragged down by you You would have sold me like I was used No past confessions restrain the black your love is lies that hold me back ------------------------------------------------- How simple you break the things you love take this heart for granted say you can't stand it but your reflection gives you away and the things that you say moving you a gentle shove to get you started we are now dearly departed like the illusion of our love.

I stand blank An empty canvas paint yourself on me make me your lies show me your secret hues abstract former lives I still stand blank

HEARTACHE I am waiting on somethings I am sure will never come Still debating endless issues I’m not sure where they’re from Painfully I hold on to the darkness in my chest I have no way to let go There’s nothing I want less I am lost in this depression clawing for a breath I flounder feeling listless til there’s almost nothing left With everything I’m grasping My anguish still resides in all the darkened places that you have left behind GRASPING Lost and I am out of time I found no foothold to keep me from tripping the line Pain I find wrapped around my heart dark and wasted I release what I hold inside UNCARING I weep My strength has let me down I lay upon the earth and cease to make a sound. The only part that’s left of me lays deep within the ground. I tried but nothing came of it. I lifted you up into my arms and held you through your fits and now the love I had for you is blowing in the wind. My heart ceases to care LEAVE ME Don’t call me cute I am not in the mood sullen disparaged dragged out I live, I brood I am not just set up to consume all your crap misgivings affairs pulled taught soon to snap I shaved my head to spite you and still you beg for me to stay wanting desperate he left I leave the same way I AM NO FOOL What must I do? Can I get through to you? Your breaking me. And what you make of me, It lies broken and fooled. I don’t play the joker. I am not a man who likes guilt. I did not drive you to it. I know you think of him still. I’ve been talking to walls, and yeilded better results than any speech with you. Which you claim is my fault. Don’t be condecending. Don’t claim absent love. For it was your love in absence. Your not longer my drug.

LEFT blood red marring the winter snow a picture of endings a sign of things to come a forgotten memory left to wash away FOR SOME ONE Why the dark in a night of the paleness of your skin Ivory cheek Eyes they tread on a beauty deep BREAKING Maybe it was a pass time lie the breaking that I feel in side horror of over looked life and the waiting it all takes but it all still floats on by and the breaking never heals the will to survive subsides with the more you learn spirit broken your heart a token to put away like some unfinished work of art to never be complete WHO ARE YOU Swath me in your sleep cradle me in the fantasy take my hand once more lead me past your broken floors past all of your thought out lies to the shadow of the beast inside cry the words out from the tip of my tounge grasp the pain of your image unsung FIND ME Taken down you reach me on my throne a self made pedistal of delusions and self preservation my alienation called into question by your unmarred view of my shaded passions for stowing away in unhinged places that only you find DON'T FORGIVE I taint you like a stain that woun’t come clean I take my misery and infect your mind I break you I try to bleed you dry I watch the tears you cry not knowing what I will find The emotions wraped around you feel warped and misunderstood it does you no good to forgive me SAVE ME I’m caught no escape no way no hole to burrow out I scream no takers no love no one to rant about Save me, form me Or watch me bleed Stand far from me and judge my needs I hate no worry no wait no time to get it straight I loath no anger no pain no hand and it’s too late

Make of me the shadow of my mind reflect me on your deepest thought then pass me into time Close again that door to the place I have searched for shape the demons for me and my will is mine no more

I take on your infinite body And wait for the slip stream to carry me by dissolved in the blood stream and fixated on your dream loving the pain til the day we both die

I cried myself to sleep last night another page in an endless fight it seems we just go round and round and neither one of us back down and I still don't know why I'm hiding nothing up my sleave No slight of hand, Just honesty I watched the love die in your eyes this lonely night is no surprise and I still don't know why