MittieOutLaw's blog: "In Side Dixie's head (look Out LOL)"

Life isn't always fair just when you think you are on top of the world and your every dream is coming threw then at the drop of the hat you loose it all I lost my Baby and then the man I Love was sent to Jail for a drug promble and I was left a lone in the cold cure world all alone once again but I pry that he can get help and get his head stright but I feel like God forgot about me and left me all alone to sufer and be alone I don't know if I should Scream , cry or just lay down and die People say if I can do anything let me know well if you can bring my baby back and make the man I love well again then that's what I want but no one can do that for me so all I can ask is just pry for me to be Strong that's all anyone can do for me cause noone can be God and put things back like they were and make ppl shut their mouths about me and him but you know what I say keep on cause i don't care cause the truth will show its self and God will Get me Threw all this and I am going to be Strong threw it all and rise above it bigger and better and be a Stronger person fo it all and what don't kill me only makes me stronger

To start off with I went to Jail for 30 days fro a bad Check and I was hooked on Drugs yes Drugs and Yes Dixie it was bad I got to the point that I realized I was on the road to worse things and a messed up life and I didn't want to stay on that Road I wanted to be better and do better so I went to Church Cause I knew God was the only one that could help me so I went and ask him to help me get my Life stright and he got a hold of me and when he did he delivered me from the Drugs and I am Proud to say I have been clean for 5 Weeks now and don't want it don't go around ppl that do it and I feel 100% better about my self and I can look at myself and actually Say I love me God has helped me out a lot I am going to Church now I work with the Jail Ministry and I am Moving Forward and not Looking back and I met a really gr8 man who is Sweet supportive Loving careing Copmpassioate and he is 110% real he don't play and he says Dixie is Priceless he is the most WONDERFUL Man I have ever met and I really Care a lot about it and Love you 2

well I met this guy last year when I worked at Circle K he seemed ok and we lost track of each other Well he found me on here so we started talking he came seen me but he made me unconfortable and he kept hinting around he wanted to have sex so I told him it wasn't happenin well he sent me numous meassages on here wannting to hang out and he didn't want sex then he tell me he does wanna have sex and I told him I wasn't the one and he got pissed and started making fun of me about my teeth where my husband had knocked them out it hurt but pissed me off more but when he thought he was gonna get layed i was sexy and all that but then he does that to me why does guys have to be that way why is it that all men want now days is to get layed what is it they think all women are whores well let me tell u all something we are not Whores and sex toys we want and need more out of life than just to get layed there is more to Life than JUST SEX so Guys before you look at a woman like a whore remember That God didn't give us to ya'll Just to have sex with and or to use for a slave or punching He put us here to keep ya'll from being Lonely so think about our feelings also and remember that we are a gift from God not something to play with and abuse then throw away when you are tired of us and ladies that goes for us also men aren't to be used and abused either So think before you hurt some one or just wan a quick piece off ass make sure it is what u both want and don't be mean if the other doesn't want it

I have found the Love of my life and I can say I am really in Love cause I love him uncodishionaly he is really sick it is fatle but I don't care becouse I Love him with everybreath I take he is my heart and soul and he told me He Loved me also but we are having a pause in our realtionship but I know God will help us threw this

well all I can do is just get right down to it so here goes........ I have a friend that I really Love and I mean more than friends and I found out yesterday that he really Loves me also but we have to go through the vally so we can get to the Mountian top and he told me yesterday he is really sick and he will die from this sickness and I told him I didn't care I would be there for him nomatter what instead of running away I went to him becouse he needs me my heart is breaking into all I can do is cry and I have tryed not not to love him but I can't prtend I don't love him I know everything happens for a reason but I still gotta ask and wonder why?? and Ihe wants me there for him becouse he is afraid that his friends will not be friends andy more but I told him if they stop being his friends then they were never friends in the frist place and fuck em becouse they are stupid for turning their backs on him when he needs em and that they are soryy and he don't need em but how do you deal with something like this when the one person you really Love is deathy sick and you will loose em OH GOD PLEASE HELP US BOTH me to be strong and be there for him and Him Not to give up So everyone that is my friend PLZ Pray for him

Well Me and my X are Best friends and are there to talk to but maybe that is the way it's suppose to be but I am happy with that if I can't have him as a Lover then I am Happy Having him as a Friend at leat I don't Loose Him completely Well Things are going Ok I guess I am happy to a certain extent I Love My Job and I have my Friends and Family & Kids that Love me and Keifer that is my heart and my lil sweetie my 2 year old God Child he is a rooten egg but he's my lil Rotten egg and X's and their prombles how in the hell do I get pulled in them and end up friends with their girl Friends Hell I just don't understand it is weird and to talk to her and hear her say I Love him and don't know what to do it's just Crazy I don't know how I do it maybe it's just that I am the kinda person that can Listen to PPL when they have a promble but hell X's Girl Friends WHAT THE FUCK ??? I just don't know maybe it's cause I am a good person and I simpathize with others and Have a good heart But if I am such a Good Person why in the hell does PPL wanna start Drama & Fuck with my LIfe I mean shit I get a man & I am happy then someone has to Come in and Fuck it up WHAT THE FUCK???? Do I have a sign on me that says here I am Come Fuck up my life

Well I have been thrugh a lot in the last 2 weeks or 3 I had a fucking fat ass hooker that was suppose to be my friend cause me to loose the person I loved but I took care of her for awhile till that right day and time comes around then I am gonna finish what she started but you know I have handled the break up better than I though I would I guess it is a good thing it happen this soon instead of a few years down the road I didn't have enough time to get in 2 deep but a friend of my witch is my X has been talking to me he just went through a breakup qalso so we are kinda there for each other but my heart is really with him he had me from hello yeah I know it is a song but he did we break up and things happen and come back around to me and him I don' know what that means but it keeps happenin I just don't understand why some ppkl gotta cause shit for others and screw up their lifes and I wish they would leve me alone it's been 2 damn long since I had a happy realtionship well maybe I haven't without a crackhead hooker fucking it up but you know what I am just gonna give it to God and say Jesus take the wheel I can't do this on my own cause that's all I can do

Well Love that is a Dirty Word cause everytime I find love something happens to it everytime I get close to someone or something it falls apart , dies or leves me so I am givin up on Love or getting close to anyone and no man will close to me it will not happen again I am not going to set up for a heart ack and to be shot down again so as far a Love nope it aint happein I am not going to let it happen besides most men are only out for onr thing and it isn't love or a realtionship all they want is a one nite stand , a botty call or just to have a woman they haven't had but THAT ISN'T ME but you know what WHAT THE FUCK DOES LOVE HAVE TO DO WITH IT

well my life has been really suck ass I lost my cousin she died about 3 weeks ago the 2 days later my friend died then 2 weeks later another friend died in a car reck then I called my X cause he was haveing a really bad time and he needed someone to talk to and we ended up back to gather & he asked me to marry him I said yeah then he started haveing hell with his X and I just couldn't and wouldn't deal with her she is a dope head and drinks all the time and now today my aunt passed away I am just ready to just give up on everything and crawl in a hole and never come out Love is given up on me and I guess I will never find Love I am just givein up on men and Love My Life Sucks ass

well I took a Job as a care taker for a older lady who can't walk and a nanny to her lil 2 year old girl that she is trying to get cousty of well was that a big mistake the 2 year old was really mean she didn't wanna listen she fault me when I would punish her and put brusies on me she would tell me no or laugh in my face I haven't ever had a child treat me that way I just got to my ropes end really quick and told em I was done , finished , that was it , it was over no more and I QUITE I tell you what I was a nervus reack no amount of money could make me stay there don't get me rong the lady and her husband are good ppl but that child man I caouldn't handle that no way a 2 year old is running my life and I have to be up her ass 24/7 Then last nite and today I got some really bad news My aunt has cancer i already knew this but it has spread to her lungs her kendneys are starting to fail and she is on oxgeon and marfine for the pain and they don't look for her to make it 2 more weeks so to all that read this plz keep my family in your prayers