In memory of a great man.
Tomorrow there is going to be a memorial for my Grand father. He past a couple of months ago. I cant be there for this but just something i wanted to say.
My Grandfather was a man of many faces for me he was my father, grandfather, teacher, and friend. He raised me and was always there for me. I was by his side when he died it was the only time i ever seen fear and he asked me to pray for him I did not know what to say but i did it and he went to sleep verry peacful like never to wake again. Less than 24 hours later he left us.
I could not grieve at the time because i had to be the strong one and he asked me to that for him hold everyone together. It took a couple of weeks before i did and it was only a longing not a regret. He always told me david be who you are and never regret anything.
I guess you never forget, and i can only hope i have our memories together. Sometimes i reach and grab my phone and go to call him to ask some sort of advice and remember him gone. When fathers day came around i bet i picked up the phone a hundred times to call him. lol. The other day while installing a cealing fan i wanted to double check my wiring so i called my wife and said call pa.... and caught my self. These are the things that seem so hard to get over.
I look at my son playing learning doing something wrong even and wonder. How he responded or looked at me when i did these things. Did he cherish these momments as I? I am sure he did but now as i am still going thru my lifes journys and there is something so exciting to talk to him about he is not here. But i like to beleave he is somewhere watching and smiling with me.
P.S. I love you and miss you Pappaw
