deathpoet's blog: "In Memorium"

for my Dad...

And the rain came on
and for so long,
the tears that i pented up
finally exploded out of me.
I'm sorry i wasn't stronger,
just a human after all.

oh father forgive me i loved you so.
And i tried so hard to learn the lessons
like a good son.
But the world is so different today.
its not the one you lived
and tried to make.

And it's thundering and raining
again today,
just like it did three years ago to the day.
And standing in that chapel
watching the flag draped,
and the color guard they fired,
God echoed their report,
like cannons in the heavens,
things will never be the same,
again.

And here again comes the rain.
but these showers,
can't make it clean again.
Why does it always seem to rain?
Why does it always seem to rain?

Those of you who have known me for a bit have heard my tales of the pain i have gone through my whole life.  Fact is i have fu - proposed to a few women on here only to be told no and then there have been those who i thought i was very close to who have become engaged or married to others... i DO NOT begrudge anyone their happiness, but i, as usual, am alone... so when this VIP runs out... i'm deleting or taking a VERY long hiatus, as there's nothing for me here. 

I'm a troll, i get it and i should have never expected anything more... goodbye...

For those of you who have read my blogs, my first blog was about my dog Sam. Back in October Sam was diagnosed with kidney disease. It is not known if this disease was congenital or caused from the tainted food, the brand he was raised on was one that was recalled. Last night, at approximately 4:30,Sam succumbed and died peacefully while he was being petted. It's hard to imagine but I am truly hertbroken.