Today was...
A bad day for me , it is still a bad night and will run another bad day and every day between now and the day of the funeral.
I dont have the energy to fight, I dont have the need or want to continue a pointless arguement.
To my brothers and sisters who are over seas, I am sorry i am not there with you. I wish despritly i was , perhaps i would make some small differance perhaps one more person might make it back alive insted in a body bag.
I dont know, i am not fit for active duty and for that i am sorry, I was stupid as a young adult and enjoyed my arrogent extreme sports too much. I should of been more careful
I should of watched more, maybe who knows what i am at fault for anymore, not even i know now. I cant help but stand here and doubt.
I'm sorry ...
I am forever sorry. I am sorry i am not there , i am sorry i am not better at my job and i am sorry if i bring shame to any of you. The army is all i know its how i was raised, Tho my parents were never military many others in my family were so i know well what greatness means.
I've tried so hard to reach that greatness they all did and i feel as though i have some how failed.
I am sorry..
I am sorry Jake, I am sorry markus and luke I'm sorry kenith i am sorry jeremy. I am sorry i was not a better leader. I am sorry i did not do my job like i should of. Perhaps my family is right perhaps everyone is right who has ever said it.
Perhaps i am not cut out to be a good officer ...or a soldier for that matter. I am just doing the best i can , perhaps that is not good enough.
I'm sorry...
I'm sorry ritchie i did not keep that promise i made you i tried so hard. I am sorry Mike that i was not fit to follow in your boots.
I am sorry Jimmy that i cannot match to the standards that you set for me. And most of all...I'm sorry god, I have failed in the worst of ways, I failed to protect i have not kept to the oath i once made. I cannot be the perfect soldier..
I am just me that is all i am i know it is not what people want but it is all i can give.
I'm sorry
