AJ the Wicked Jester's blog: "Memoirs and Thoughts of the Broken Blade.."

I wish I wasnt so pathetic. 

I wish I was as strong as some think I am..

I wish I didn't suffer from depression. 

I wish I wasn't always drowning in despair.

I wish I were a better son and brother. 

I wish I were a better friend and lover

I wish I could change my past,

But I also wish I could relive it again.

Iwish I could forget the pain,

And remember the pleasure 

I wish I hadn't wasted time and emotion on the unworthy.

I wish people hadn't wasted time on me when I was unworthy.

I wish I wasn't falling apart.I wish the years would no longer fall.

I wish I wasn't forced to endure alone. 

I wish that, for my mistakes, I could atone.

I wish I didn't feel empty and broken. 

I wish that I didn't feel so lost without love.

I wish I still believed in hope.

I wish I believed love can heal everything. 

I wish that love could be real and true. 

I wish I cared enough to keep fighting.

I wish I believed in myself.

I wish I still had dreams and goals.

I wish all these wishes werent a practice in futility. 

Now I only have a single wish left.

I wish to to die.

I wish to know a silent peace. 

I wish...