TaNyA is NotUrType's blog: "new stuff"

I was going to post this on my Facebook, but I have some sensitive family members there and I am not wanting to upset them after this very sensitive and emotional election, so I am sharing it here, because those who I intend to see it, will.  So here it goes....

I am a woman, a mother, a christian and a conservative.  These are not just labels I have, but part of my identity.  I have never disguised myself as anything other than who I am and I never plan to.  I stand by my convictions, I exercise my rights to express those convictions when appropriate.  I strive to be honest, to show compassion, extend love, offer grace, all based on the foundation that God provides me.  I am not always perfect, I have times when I allow my emotions to get the best of me, just like any other human.  

I believe in helping the less fortunate, by providing them an option rather than the band-aid of continued oppression called social services.  I believe in our Constitutional Rights, EVERY one of them.  I am shaken at the idea of our religious freedoms being stripped from us and our 2nd ammendment no longer existing.  I believe in womens right to choose what to do with their bodies, sometimes we have to make the hard decisons, but I oppose late term abortions, there is plenty of time to make that decision before the baby can literally survive without you carrying it.  I believe in women having equal opportunities and being paid for them fairly.  I believe in our military, and am heartbroken at the treatment of our veterans.  I support fair and legal immigration for people who want to join the American Dream and contribute economically, socially and culturally to the advancement and betterment of our country.

 I have raised 2 amazing young men, and have always tried to teach them to respect others, especially elders and women, to work hard to achieve their dreams, and become a postive influence to their communities.

 I like to believe that I have a good moral foundation, that I have good character, and that I am a reflection of what I try to convey every day.  I believe in kindness, but I also believe in truth.  I am bold, outspoken, and straight to the point.  Most of those that know me, I can only hope understand me this way, if not I am failing at my personal cause.  

What some people dont know, is that I suffered abuse beginning at the age of 8 years old in every facet you can imagine.  I am the daughter of an alcoholic father and a depressed mother.  Please dont think they were bad parents, just unaware at times of the reality their kids were living because they were overwhelmed.  I am the oldest sister of 4 siblings who I was responsible for most waking hours during their formative years, while both of my parents worked an absurd amount of the time just to make sure we had everything we needed. 

 I have been victimized my entire life, but I am not a victim.  I am a survivor.  I am not easily offended by the crass vulgarity that men sometimes use.  There are plenty of women I have met that have said the same types things.  I am secure enough in my worth to understand those words are not a reflection of who I am.  I dont allow myself to feel objectified by the ignorant things that can be said in jest, or in some blowhard pissing contest.  My mother taught me better.  I have survived sexual assault, and domestic violence first hand and overcame the effects only to become the strongest version of myself I can be.  I believe my path, though it was not always apparent, was God allowing me to be shaped into who I am today and I am thankful for all of the life lessons I have learned thru the years.

 I am sure people are wondering why I am sharing all of this.  Well, It is 5am here in AZ, hours after Donald Trump was elected as our 45th President.  Yes, I voted for him, and I would do it again.  I am not going to defend my decision, I have boldly expressed my views coming in to this election, and I stand by them firmly.  I buried myself in the information, not that the MSM provided us, but I dug, and deep, into the history and character of each candidate, compared their platform to my ideals and beliefs, evaluated the backgrounds, researched the accusations and did everything I could to educate myself before I endorsed a candidate.  It took me until mid to late October to finally decide whom I was voting for.  

Do I have my reservations?  Yes, of course I do, but not nearly as many as I do about his opponent.  The facts continued to stack themselves up and it was clear to me that there was no way I would do anything that would assist her in being a representative of women, or our country.  Hillary was just not the right women to bestow such a monumental honor upon.  She doesnt deserve to go down in history as Americas first woman President.  I will stand by that belief as long as I live.  Do I love DJT?  Nope, but I am encouraged by the people he surrounds himself with, and his desire to bring down the elite establishment who has lead our country down a very dangerous and unethical path.  There was no voting for Gary or Jill, I will not waste my only chance, my only voice to our governement that I disapprove of Hillary Clinton being allowed to run for President.

 I am saddened that some people I cared for could not accept this.  I am even more taken aback at how my decision has people attacking my morals, my character, and my intelligence.  People that know me well, intimately even and have always been a source of reinforcement that I am projecting the person I strive to be to the world.  Now, because I made a choice that differs from them, I am no longer any of the things they claimed I was.  I was loved when I was in agreement.  I was loved when I was quiet about my ideals, I was loved when I was conforming, and now, I am watching the hypocrisy of some people I cherished, cared for and even admired.  I have seen the colors of these people, and it has broken my heart, but it has not made me regret my decison to voice my truth, and cast my vote.  

There is no room in life for us to have "friends" degrading us, bringing us down, and challenging our right to individual thoughts and actions.  I am always open to discussion when questioned, and I strive to always remain in the circle of respect while I do so.

 So, in conclusion, I just want to say that I am expressing this to advise that anyone who believes I am less of a person, that my morals are questionable, and I am unintelligent, is more than welcome to remove the negative influence I have placed on your life by using that Unfriend button.  I have experienced much bigger losses in life, I will survive it without giving you another thought.  I voted for Trump.  I did it for my own personal reasons and convictions and I stand by it.  I will not be victimized by people who dont agree with that decison.  I will not allow myself to be chastised as less than because I supported DJT.  If that is your message to me, I promise I will save you the energy and remove myself from your life when you dont have the backbone to do so yourself, because that would be admission that you placed differences over relationships and I refuse to have that negative energy in my life.  So, a cleanse is in order it seems...sadly I am sure I will see a few people walk away, I  wish you all the happiness life can offer and bid farewell.