i sit here
thinking of him
his sweet embrace
his soft touch
his glorified smile
his outstanding personality
i sit here
thinking of how i messed up
writing all those things
hurting him for no reason
believing a rumor
causing uneccessary pain
i sit here
thinking of how i lost him
knowing ill never get him back
knowing i might not see him again
feeling as if the world might end
hurting more than ever before
i sit here
thinking about how i want to cry
some how knowing that i can't
feeling so numb inside
wanting so bad just to die
