i'm sorry that i wasted all those years of your time
I'm sorry that I've hurt most everyone that i hold dear. Im sorry that people have ended up hating me. I thought i was alienated before i called everyone cunts but i guess i wasnt. i was just hurt cause so much has changed. Every single one of my friends that ive known for like forever ive grown apart from. i barely speak at all anymore. most of the time i lounge around in bed till its time to fall asleep? do i need to say im sorry, do i need to beg for forgiveness? well probably not i dont really deserve the forgiveness. with the easter holiday coming up it makes me think what could have been and wonder what if i chose the other path? would i still have friends that didnt mind saying a word or two instead of having no friends just ex-friends lashing out at me for stuff ive said over the last few months. sure i said some cruel things but im only human, it just seemed pretty damn funny to me that after i got back from my trip to meet josh every single "friend" of mine ended up cozying up to people they supposedly said they hated having around. was everyone really so fake? the i cant stand so $so's and i wish they would leave and not come back.. or so n so's a slut/whore. is all that really worth it. or is everyone as two faced as they seem? who really knows maybe im venting maybe im bored ill never beg to be forgiven and ill never beg to be talked to. and as for an email from one of my ex friends... if they would kindly pay attention most of my profiles and other things have changed. i wont try to make amends but i just wanted to say
happy easter to all even if you hate me and dont deem to speak to me anymore
