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What are you waiting for?
Will i ever be enough?
Will i ever make you proud?
Will i ever not be one of your daily disappointments?
Will i ever fit into your minds perfect image you have of me?
Will i ever be good enough to fit into your dream world?
Will i ever get to be myself?
Will i ever get to feel?
Will i ever be able to live my life?
Will i ever not let you down?
Will i ever get to be happy?
Will i ever get to feel i wont always fail?
Will i ever be able to do stuff in my own way?
Will i ever be free from your ridicule?
Will i ever be let go from the nitpicks?
Will i ever get to see your stubborness end?
Will i ever be able to do anything right?
just getting fed up with it all honestly.. im just so sick and tired of never being enough and people always wanting more. i cant be a perfect image of what everyone thinks i should be. i have to be myself and do things in my own time. I'm not a child that can be pushed around and made to do whatever you want to please yourself for that point and time. I need to live for myself and not for anyone elses expectations. so meh just mehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh >.<
Its time to step up and be a man
You said brutal honesty will be the plan
So why the deceit and why the lies?
Why continue to put pain behind my eyes?
Why continue to jab me in the heart?
You promised to be honest from the start
Dont hide, dont run
Step up and destroy me, just get the deed done
Dont run and hide when youre scared.
Be honest with me if any feelings we had were once shared
Say what you want and not what you think i need
Get the pain over with quickness and speed
Run the other way if you must
Destroy me, annihlate my trust
Gather your balls the times at hand
Time for you to take your last stand
If you dont want friendship tell me, youll be free
Be honest and true the deceit hurts me if you even see
Dont fuck with my heart, to keep me under your spell
Just destroy me and leave my heart where its fell
Basically, im sick of being lied to. i want one fucking person in my life to be honest for a change. If you dont like me and dont want to be around me then say it and dont fucking hide behind everyone else in your life. If you dont want to talk to me and keep a friendship then fucking tell me already. Dont lead me on that hurts the most and its the worst of all. Just get it over with already and be true to me and to yourself. im sick of being kicked when im down just finish the job already
Looking down im filled with dread
It feels like my life is hanging by a thin thread
Cannot rest throughout the night
Nightmares leaving me with nothing but a fright
Dreams intruding that can never be
Daydreams barge in, but ones ill never have happen or see
I wish above all else to close my exhausted eyes
Be free from all the deceit and lies
I feel like im falling apart
Although i knew this would happen from the start
I never get to keep happiness in my life
I feel like a biohazard it always ends in strife
The last few years have been hell to deal
I wish i could block out my feelings and just not feel
To shut them off and just not care
To not care if life was fair
I'm forced to tread on with what ive been dealt
To be alone in the feelings ive thought or felt
i feel like i can never catch a break
To find something to assauge the ache
Disappointment floods in from ones i thought i loved
Everyone always pushes and leaves me feeling unloved
They ignore my wants and my dreams
Leaving me to my silent screams
Always pushing, always wanting more
Leaving me broken, battered, and my heart sore
I feel like someones constantly tapping on a thorn
Leaving my body weary and my heart worn
Leaving my heart broken in pieces, scatterned and strewn
Making me want to curl up in a protective cocoon
Dont leave me feeling like ive been ground into the dirt.
Help me pick my life up and get over the hurt
Be here for me in my hours of need
Dont push me let me go at my own speed
Dont turn me away when im in tears
Gather me close and listen about my fears
Show me that you can be counted on
That im not just some easily replaced friendship pawn
Don't insult me because my hearts different then yours
Don't beat at me till im doiwn begging on all fours
No one has to like my choices
Reach out to me and be one of the comforting voices
Dont push me away when i need you the most
Dont treat me like im an invisible ghost
Sooooooooooo yeah heres my extremely exhausted hugest emo poem ever written. No one has to like the path ive chosen. Its mylife to live it how i choose. Its my heart to deal with. I'm hoping people will be there for me instead of acting like i dont exist. Especially the people i care about most. I hate all the bickering everyones been brought to. This is the lowest ive ever been. I dont expect anyone to fix my problems. Nor do i want them to. Just be there when i need someone to talk to. I wish everyone all the luck and happiness in their lives. You guys deserve it whether you believe it at times or not. If anyone deletes me then its your choice and it was nice knowing you while it lasted.
