sense me and my bithmother dont get along at all im going to have nicole adopt me legaly. yea i hope it hurts her alot....i dont gve a fuck anymore...nicole has been more of a mother to me sense my own mother. she dont care about any one but her self. she wont even stop drinking so my dad can stop...i hate my god danm family. when my dad calls me up wating to kill himself...i went over there and my mom called. all she did was bitch at me about garbage bags when i told her tat dad wanted to kill himself.....she was like sissy told u not to go over there. i would have felt bad if anything happend beause he was begging me to come over.
i cant stand how my mind is link a ping pong match..one minut im happy and nothing can hurt me the next i want to die. im trying so hard to stop cutting but one little thing can push me over the edge. i allready tryed to kill myself once im not affraid to do it again. people dont understand me and i doubt anyone will. im not affraid to try and kill myself again.
if people knew my past and how angry i am then they would know why im acting like this. im constantly being told that the juggalo family wont be there for me. i just wish i had a normal life that i had frends i know i would be a hell of alot happyer.